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Come at me, scrubs

i know you're going to kick my ass so just get it over with

/SLAMS THIS SUCKER DOWN, YES IT WAS ALREADY WRITTEN UP

I joked so much about Chiron adopting half of this game, but I did not expect it to be so literal in some cases.

Lup is… jesus, she was a whirlwind of sass and delight from day one, one of the few who could so thoroughly confuse Chiron, but still be so heartfelt and joyous? Being around her was akin to a firefly dancing around the sun, and he really fell in love with how lively she could be. It was like a constant reminder of what he had forsaken for duty – the joy of being alive with someone else at the same time.

Which is a big reason why her happiness turned into one of his primary concerns throughout the game. His relationship with Emet, while occasionally romantic, was still rooted in pragmatics for him – if he had to die, he knew that Emet would let him. But Lup was very open and firm about her own wishes, that she was tired of losing people and wanted Chiron to live not for himself, but because she loved him and wanted him to continue existing. So all of those times Chiron was preparing himself for a potential death -- whenever he was plotting and moving himself like a chess piece that would soon be scooted off the board, he would remember Lup and just feel this sting of guilt that followed him like a rain cloud.

Maybe should couldn’t stop him from yeeting himself into death, but that she could make him pause at all, and really consider if it was worth leaving people behind… The amount of sway and power she had over Chiron was delightful, to be honest.

It’s why when he was chosen to die, Chiron honestly grieved for his own life. Because he wanted to live, and he wanted to be with Lup, and he didn’t want to imagine a world where she was crying over him. He felt as if he’d failed her, and the best he could manage was encouraging others like Blanca and Sora to look after her while he was dead.

-- AND THEN IT TURNS OUT SHE KNEW DAMN WELL HE WAS GOING TO DIE but honestly, that did not change his opinion in the slightest. She went to bat for him pretty much every week up until the end, when they all knew someone had to die -- and those decisions were made with the intent of bring the dead back to life anyway. So it didn't hurt him, he didn't feel betrayed; the only thing he felt was sadness that he left her anyway, and she had to let it happen.

Now that he’s alive, Chiron is determined to put more value into his own life – not as a Heroic Spirit that might be called to put down his life for the sake of the world/universe, or as a myth that’s been shared throughout history to the point his life isn’t necessarily his anymore -- but as an individual person with his own wants and needs. He wants to spend some of that time with her, partly as a thank you for helping to guide him, but also because he just. wants to be beside her.

Smh hate this

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evocationary - 2020-11-23 20:56 (UTC) - Expand

hi chiron....

OKAY FIRST OF ALL I HAVE TO APOLOGIZE. I realized a bit too late I am much better at coordinating pcs when people are on my plurk and for some reason didn't realize you were not there, I'm crying. I fuckin loved Ange and honestly wish I had picked up more slack in pcing with you so... gomen for that.

But oh yes, Chiron was super fooled by Ange's persona and still doesn't even really know who she is as a person. So all of his attention/assumptions are based off of that lie -- that Ange was a young woman who had to grow into herself and needed some guidance, and he was happy to do that for her if she wanted. THOUGH SINCE A LOT OF IT WAS JUST LIES...

That said, there were a couple of moments that made Chiron "hm" in retrospect. The first was when Ange was like "okay you just. deal with the fuckin baby, I'm not going to" during that CYOA. Chiron really should not have been so sidetracked, but it didn't escape his notice how surprisingly competent she was in that crisis, even though he did not dwell on it long enough to talk to her about it.

The second was when Ange told Chiron that they were friends. Even if it was a lie and she did not consider him anything as such, Chiron is not used to having any type of friendships; for him, he's a tool to be used for the greater good, or a teacher to guide students down their paths. Both of these existences are wrapped up in bittersweet partings, so being around anyone long enough for them to consider him a friend takes a while for him to comprehend. Regardless, he appreciated that talk with her, and it helped him consider his friendships with other people, too.

So his own feelings on her ended up being relatively positive. If I get a chance to come at you in the farewell log, he'll probably just be mildly like "oh, then I suppose we haven't truly met" and not take any offense because it's legit hard to piss Chiron off.

(hansa voice) yes i WOULD kiss a horse

/SLAMS THIS DOWN

Honestly I’d say of everyone in the OT4, Chiron’s opinion of Hansa is the one that has evolved the most. What started as them creating a business arrangement due to their shared universe turned into a… well, not a friendship, not quite that in the beginning, but when I tell you that Hansa unlocked jock!Chiron in their second PC, I am not kidding. Chiron is noted as being incredibly wise and sage-like, and those aspects of his personality are valid, but he is also a warrior, he enjoys the thrill of a fight, and it was comforting being able to share that part of himself with someone who also feels the same.

Because around Hansa, he feels like he can have fun! Hansa is honest, a jokester, yet emotionally competent, and just feels incredibly human in a way that Chiron doesn’t associate with HGW at all. He is used to the emotional constipation that tends to plague mages, so it was the perfect storm for Chiron, to feel comfortable around someone who knew what kind of being he was, what his existence entailed, but without having to go through the awkward explanations and expectations.

And honestly, it was a help that despite knowing exactly who Chiron was, Hansa was still just willing to chill with him like he was a person, not a legend. Hansa only asked for Chiron’s company most of the time, and once it clicked that Hansa considered him a friend – and really, that Chiron felt the same way – that’s when Chiron started putting in more of an effort to be a friend to him, too. (The fact that Hansa had been upset at the prospect of losing Chiron is still one of the biggest shocks Chiron suffered all game, I was laughing so hard).

… AND THEN THE FUCKIN OT4 BACKHANDED US ALL.

Because Chiron’s entire thing with Emet is … well, you already know about that mess, but the gist of it is that Chiron doesn’t want Emet to be alone. So suddenly having Hansa appear with feelings for this other immortal was actually a relief to Chiron, even more so when it was suggested that they all hang out as a polycule. Chiron ain’t the jealous type, he is GREEK and a CENTAUR, and it made perfect sense to invite the man he was quickly seeing as his best friend in on this arrangement. That he brought Alex along? Well, the more the merrier. They all have two hands.

I do think them being in close, emotional proximity to each other is what really cemented the relationship they have with each other, now. Alex turned into his emotional rock, but Hansa is the one Chiron feels most… physically comfortable around, for all the reasons that have been stated above. But also because Hansa just allows for that type of physicality; they both have that shared language between them, that allows for heated spars but also casual kisses. Though that’s also why Chiron is often still blindsided by how quickly Hansa will be on his ass for any grievances, especially if the guy is unhappy with how Chiron is treating himself. It really just comes down to Chiron still not knowing how to treat himself like a living, breathing, physical person who has a right to be alive, but he honestly does appreciate the lengths Hansa goes to remind him that his happiness is valid.

touches your hands

FELLOW IMMORTAL

In Chiron’s eyes, Xie Lian represents the best that godhood has to offer, which is a touch ironic given that Xie Lian expressed he had once been human, but no matter – he is kind, courteous, devout, and truly believes in the inherent goodness of others, as well as the importance of duty and what it means to serve others, even if you yourself are nearly destroyed in the process. That’s why Chiron is very grateful the Knight title was given to Xie Lian; because it is such a cruel, ugly role in its own way. You must weigh the lives of every person each week, you have to get lucky enough to hit your target, and then you must pray that everything goes according to plan, elsewise you have failed and have to carry that failure in your soul.

And then, like the situation with Dorothy showed, sometimes you accidentally trample on the wills of those you save, even if your intentions are good. It’s just one of those roles that is easy to criticize from afar, and takes a very strong will and heart to bear through all of that responsibility. Chiron thought all of this the moment he heard the role existed, and in his own way, grieved that Xie Lian was going to be tasked with that responsibility.

LET HIM REST.

The role bearing aside, talking to Xie Lian was just always easy for Chiron as well, because the two of them share so many similarities, including a fondness for humanity as a whole. Chiron is deeply pragmatic and, in some instances, can appear cold (him ready to kill Kano during that execution comes to mind), so it helps a lot when others are able to see just how truly caring and considerate he is. And like, even if Emet is mean about it, Chiron will forever be grateful to XL for saving him – not just because Emet also bore a role, but Chiron would have been deeply wounded by the loss of someone he cared for. For that alone, Chiron will keep Xie Lian in high regard.

I honestly forgot about the condom hat and had to find the thread where it happened and I guess it was Kano and Cater seeing this hat and going wow what an ugly hat, I wonder if Chiron would wear it? It was supposed to be a nice fun gift or something. A gift from Kano's and Cater's gremlin hearts saying they're thinking of him u_u

HE FUCKIN KNEW IT, KANO.

HE FUCKIN KNEW IT.

I will say though that Kano was easily one of those CR that was just wild from start to finish for Chiron. He never disliked the other -- if pressed, he'd admit he enjoyed his company and spontaneousness -- but Kano easily invoked "Teacher Chiron" by being a gremlin, so he refused to take shit and was ready to gently beat the kid up at a moment's notice.

Gently, but with affection.

kisses the horse