As no calendar is available, the date today will be designated as "Pre-Start". The day that the participants arrive will be designated as the "start". I cannot explain my urge to write this report, but perhaps acting on it will help retrieve my lost memories.
The five other "Leaders", as we have been designated, are in the same situation: no recollection of our lives before awakening in this place. The one who brought us here and tasked us with our duty is not present. For the time being, it is only the six of us here in what is called the Realm.
I cannot yet predict how things will go. For now, I am simply observing my fellow Leaders to get a sense of who they are.
Wolf is aloof, but professional and able to get work done; considering how easily distracted this group is, that may be an asset.
Goat is quiet, if in a different world at times and rather clueless at what seems to be common knowledge for the rest of us. Difficult to get a read on.
Rabbit seems kind, but timid. Gives the impression of someone trying their best but easily intimidated.
Swan is eager, but with that enthusiasm comes an impulsive streak. Likely young.
Tiger may be the troublemaking sort. Confident and blunt, which has its uses, but quick to demean others.
How will this group fare, once the participants are here? We'll have to wait and see.
Today, the participants will arrive. Ideally, we would be there to greet them as we planned, but it seems we'll be too busy for the next while, setting everything up. We'll have to see how much trouble they get up to in the next few days.
Things will likely get chaotic once we do go out and meet them, but dealing with that is simply part of the job.
Our intended greeting was further delayed by Goat freezing over the foyer, which not only had to thaw out but caused Rabbit to slip and fall. Fortunately, she has since recovered and doesn't appear to be suffering a concussion.
Wolf, Rabbit, and I have now given initial explanations to the participants. All things considered, it went as well as it could have (aside from the others' bizarre decision to douse us in confetti and glitter). There was a surprising lack of violence.
Though I don't like having to obfuscate the truth from them, breaking the rules will apparently deprive us of the power to ultimately send them home, so honesty would be dire in this case. In any case, they are doubtful, but that might be for the better. I cannot deny that I would prefer to have their trust; however, to have it without doing anything to deserve it could be dangerous.
Personally, I struggle to believe some of the words that come out of my mouth, myself. It seems that some of the other Leaders can take this in stride, so it might say something about my previous life that all of this is incredulous to me. It's beyond my comprehension why I was chosen to handle this, in that case.
As an aside: we really should have prepared better accommodations for Archer. None of us were expecting the participants to be anything but humanoid, it seems.
Strangely, I have already regained a memory, as have the other Leaders. The arrival of the participants might have sparked it, as we all seem to remember the same thing: the existence of another dimension, within this one.
That aside, I spoke with a number of my team members today.
Kamiki Izumo is wary of us, as she has every right to be. Nevertheless, she gave me a gift, which in itself was unnecessary, never mind the effort put into it. She seems to be a kind girl, despite her blunt front. Most likely, she comes from unhappy circumstances. I'm concerned for her, but I do not believe that at this point, she would be receptive to any open gestures of support from someone she still has reason to distrust.
At the very least, however, I hope she can find comfort from any friends she makes here, such as Sora. I have to wonder how things will go with Shima Renzou, however.
Claude von Riegan—who, in his experiments, previously blew up the microwave—is a friendly, outgoing sort, though I don't doubt that his title is the "Schemer" for a reason. It wouldn't surprise me if his planned party is, in part, an attempt to lure out the remaining three Leaders. (Swan is rather unhappy about being unable to attend.)
Sharon Kreuger is not that dissimilar from Claude von Riegan, in that her friendly smile likely belies a sharpness she wields. For now, she is willing to go along, and she seems understanding of the circumstances, but I believe it would be prudent not to get on her bad side.
Spoke with Alyssa Zaidelle as well.
Aside from those team members, a number of other participants approached me during the day.
Sora is a friendly and trusting child, if to a somewhat worrying extent. However, that kindness of his will likely attract many to him, and I hope they will be able to temper any naivety.
Alex Benedetto was also polite to me, although I'm aware that she does not entirely trust us.
Perhaps I shouldn't have teased Zuko—or Prince Zuko, as his data states—so much, but he did make it very easy. I will properly reflect on my actions, I promise.
Soo-won and Yoshizawa "Kasumi" were also friendly, though I am aware from Soo-won's meetings with Sergei Varishikov that there is more than meets the eye. It is jarring how openly kind Yoshizawa Kasumi was, though.
As a final note, I have no problems if my participants want to have a healthy, consensual sex life, but I would rather not have to be a voyeur. The one saving grace, at least, is that I can tune into a different participant's happenings instead.
I spoke with Sergei Varishikov—or Blanca, as he's called—today. It is difficult to know what to make of him just yet, other than that he's a dangerous man. Though, it seems that I'm describing many people here that way.
We had our first proper nova collection today, although it appears that nova has been drawn towards the participants even without us realizing it. While I cannot say the day went without mishaps, it certainly could have gone worse and so I will conclude this incident as a success.
Met with Dorothy MacBean today. She brought up the idea of similarities within a team, and I wonder if there's some merit to the theory. I can't help but feel that from what I've seen, some of my team members have certain behaviours in common. Whether or not they reflect in me, I cannot yet say.
ETA: It's past 11 PM now and I appear to be locked inside my room, for some reason. I would pray that this sense of foreboding is only my imagination, but I can't bring myself to believe that.
Why the hell is someone dead As expected, especially after we all fell unconscious, something has gone wrong. Ichinose Hajime has turned up dead. It must have been by the hands of another participant, as we Leaders are incapable of seriously harming them, and yet I suspect they did not act purely on their own volition. A participant, on their own, would not be able to alter the state of the Realm like this.
It is dangerous to blindly point fingers at one another, but if we cannot figure out the truth of what happened, that may yet happen.
Some of us are faring better than the others. I cannot imagine what Wolf and Goat's lives were like before this, for them to accept this so calmly, however unhappily. Tiger and Swan are shocked and upset; Rabbit is perhaps taking it the worst of everyone.
I can't say I'm looking forward to facing the participants tomorrow. Still, we can't run away from this. If anything, the participants must be more shaken than us, so it is our job to do whatever we can to help them.
Regardless of all else, including one's feelings on the death penalty, Virid Visette Viridian was only a child. He didn't deserve that.
Everyone is upset, as is their right. I need to do something I don't know how though I just want to sleep and not have to wake up and deal with any of this As their support, we'll have to find a way to rectify to the situation. I would pray that nothing like this ever happens again, but the disruption in the nova concerns me. There is also the matter of the fact that Virid Visette Viridian could not have acted on his own; if a Leader is in fact responsible, we will need to handle that as well.
I gave Claude von Riegan the team hint, in order to point him towards Kamiki Izumo. Hopefully, he understood, without it being so obvious that it was a breach of the rules. I want them to be able to support one another.
Claude von Riegan found Kamiki Izumo, as I was hoping he would.
Kamiki Izumo then called for me again. It went better than I expected; she really is a kind child. What she said concerns me, though: I felt nothing from the Realm to suggest that it was its doing, and none of the other Leaders had such an ability as far as I know. However, I cannot dismiss the possibility that one of them kept quiet or developed another power—or that something else is afoot.
Sora also came to me to talk about what happened to Kamiki Izumo. Again, I am glad to know she has a good friend in him. My apologies to Sora, however, for the deception; it wasn't as if I could out her as my team member.
The group mass-gathered nova again today. It is a relief, at least, that that has not changed. Although their attempts were filled with antics, I believe that the experience will help them bond.
Two groups of people came back from what we can only describe as a concentration of memories. Whose exactly, we don't yet know. However, it's clear that these incidents are dangerous, as both groups came back injured. I know what occurred purely through Blanca.
Speaking of which, he and I met for his "Rook" title. I won't deny that it's intimidating to be in the presence of someone mafia-adjacent, but for now, that is irrelevant and therefore there is no reason to show it. I do wonder, however, if he's still unaware of the Leaders' degree of omniscience. There is nothing to lose by trying to bait me, given that I'm not monitoring him 24/7, but it was a little amusing to see. We will see how his efforts with his title go.
Zuko showed me a report. It is eerily similar to mine, down to how it was formatted. I can only assume I wrote it, as these reports were my own initiative and not something the other Leaders are doing, as far as I know. However, I have no recollection of it, and I cannot imagine where it would fit in our timeline. I don't yet know how, but I'll have to look further into this.
I would pray that nothing happens tonight, but I already know through Hilda Valentine Goneril and Claude von Riegan's conversation that that is a futile hope. Cater's nova is "splintering", causing her memories to break. This is most likely what's affecting Claude von Riegan as well, though she is the root, rather than him. As a result, Rabbit has tasked Hilda Valentine Goneril with removing her, which will protect it from spreading.
I wish I could speak with Rabbit about it, but that would force me to reveal Claude von Riegan as my team member, and the consequences for breaking the rules are too great to risk.
Sharon Kreuger is dead. It seems we won't get that "normal chat", after all; at least, not in this dimension. Even knowing that she will be sent to the other, it doesn't take away the sting of death.
Soo-won killed her. By some coincidence, it seems that each person who took a life this week has felt the need to confess to someone on my team, and again, I cannot say anything. It might be for the best that I'm not on public duty this week, as I don't know if even I could maintain enough composure.
I spoke with Sharon Kreuger today, in the other dimension. Although I knew I would have to eventually, it was still more difficult than anticipated—though at this point, I am no longer certain if it's because of her or because of everything else. With each day that passes, it grows harder and harder to trust others.
Still, it remains my duty as Leader to provide my team members with what they want.
I'm going to be sickForgive me, Kamiki, Shima, Laine Brick.I have requested that Shima Renzou deal with Laine Brick's splintering. With this, I am able to confirm that it's real. At the very least, however, the infected will stabilize once more in the other dimension—though I cannot bring myself to think that that changes the fact that they're dead.
It has been roughly a month since the Leaders woke up here, though that is only to my immediate knowledge. With what I suspect, we may have been here for much longer.
Yesterday, two of my memories returned to me. I know now that I worked for an anonymous help line for a year, before I transferred departments within the same company. I remember working with Subject No. 001, and that I failed. My superiors said that my support was insufficient, and therefore I should become more involved; they then said that I had gotten too involved and that it was my job as support not to interfere. One way or another, I had ruined Subject No. 001's prospects.
History repeats itself here. No matter what I do, it seems to be the wrong thingOne line in particular stands out to me: that I had to decide who I was to Subject No. 001. Here, I find myself with a similar question: who is "Fox" to the participants?
I cannot be their friend. Regardless of how amiable we may act, there is a boundary, which the previous week has made clear—although there may be no one else but Rabbit who fully understands this. However, behaving too distantly only encourages distrust. I'm aware that I'm snapping. I need to maintain my composure bette Though it feels that the other Leaders don't struggle with walking this line as much as I do, so it may be a personal failing.
Nevertheless, what Blanca told Lup may be true. Who I am and where I came from is of no importance: the only thing that should matter to the participants is if I can help them, and how useful I am to them. That might be the answer to the question.
I say that, but even then, I'm selfishly relieved that Kamiki Izumo doesn't seem to hate me, like I thought she would after what happened with Renzou Shima. It's more than I d
Emet-Selch's life was saved today. Most likely, through the use of another title. That no one had to die today is a relief to many, including myself.
I know now how Yoshizawa Sumire died. It's a relief to know that she didn't suffer after all. As horrible as it still is to think of, at this point, we have to take what small mercies we can get.
Though I will need to speak with Blanca, even if presumably not soon given how rarely he calls for me. Unfortunately, it seems that it's only after he asks that I finally have advice on how he should carry out his role. I don't want to send a witch hunt after Ange le Carré, so I don't know if I should out her, but I should at least help him where I can. Furthermore, the more he "confirms" Ange le Carré's innocence, the more people will suspect Kamiki Izumo by process of elimination.
Of course, she didn't kill anyone, and I didn't regain any memories this week. However, what Alyssa Zaidelle went through three days ago makes me wonder.
My deepest apologies to Sharon Kreuger, who almost certainly expected me to speak freely to everyone that she sent to me. Unfortunately, I hardly know most of them, never mind trusting them with this information. They might not even believe me, regardleWith that said, it may not matter—it looks like it is spreading, and most people will know by the end of the week. If it comes from the removed, though, then the consequences are still on my hands, as the removed most likely know because of Sharon Kreuger to begin with.
Dorothy MacBean has successfully found everyone on my team, with the exception of Alyssa Zaidelle. She certainly wasn't kidding when she said she was determined to. Once more, I hope that they will all be able to support one another. I don't know if Kamiki Izumo and Claude Von Riegan can reconcile, but at the very least, I don't believe they will allow this to interfere with trying to help everyone.
It looks like the roles found the final one, the Pawn. As expected, the role belongs to Wolf's team. I can't believe they thought it was equally plausible that I was hiding a secret living team member and second role.
My team is still below the minimum count to revive the dead, as Dorothy MacBean was unable to stay awake during Thursday night. We'll see if that changes next week; it will have to, given the deadline.
As of this week, I remember Onoya An. Though I still have no recollection of the incident in the photo I was given, at least I know who she is now. I wouldn't wish this on her, but I wish she was with
I showed my face to Kamiki Izumo, at least. Putting aside other Leaders, she, Sharon Kreuger, and Zuko are probably the only participants I'd trust that with at this point.
Although, perhaps I should have been the better person and given Blanca what he wanted, considering what I said previously. I'm meant to assist them and to be manipulated as needed; my personal feelings should be irrelevant. I sincerely believe that they all wish to rescue everyone, and of course I will support them with everything I have. Logically, even if any kindness on Blanca's part is merely him trying to lower my guard, I can't afford to be wary if it's interfering with that endeavour.
However, if I can speak selfishly for a moment: I don't want my identity, or my trust, to be nothing more than a tool for people to use.
I now recall the details of the ReLIFE experiment. More importantly, for the purposes of this place, I also remember part of one past cycle in the Realm.
Swan had Tiger killed, using Ichinose Hajime. That is knowledge I had within the memory itself, of Sharon Kreuger coming for me and slitting my throat. This is probably one I'm better off never mentioning the details of, especially to her.
That this, of all things, is the memory I regain begs some questions—but at this point, I don't know if they're worth bringing up. Whether or not Tiger was the one who ordered Virid Visette Viridian to kill Ichinose Hajime could be irrelevant; we're almost at the end, so there may be no point in causing any discord among us.
Admittedly, if I were to be completely honest, that may only be an excuse. By this point, I have so little energy for much of anything. I told Kamiki Izumo, at least, since she asked.
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DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Pre-Start
As no calendar is available, the date today will be designated as "Pre-Start". The day that the participants arrive will be designated as the "start". I cannot explain my urge to write this report, but perhaps acting on it will help retrieve my lost memories.
The five other "Leaders", as we have been designated, are in the same situation: no recollection of our lives before awakening in this place. The one who brought us here and tasked us with our duty is not present. For the time being, it is only the six of us here in what is called the Realm.
I cannot yet predict how things will go. For now, I am simply observing my fellow Leaders to get a sense of who they are.
Wolf is aloof, but professional and able to get work done; considering how easily distracted this group is, that may be an asset.
Goat is quiet, if in a different world at times and rather clueless at what seems to be common knowledge for the rest of us. Difficult to get a read on.
Rabbit seems kind, but timid. Gives the impression of someone trying their best but easily intimidated.
Swan is eager, but with that enthusiasm comes an impulsive streak. Likely young.
Tiger may be the troublemaking sort. Confident and blunt, which has its uses, but quick to demean others.
How will this group fare, once the participants are here? We'll have to wait and see.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Arrival, Day 1
Today, the participants will arrive. Ideally, we would be there to greet them as we planned, but it seems we'll be too busy for the next while, setting everything up. We'll have to see how much trouble they get up to in the next few days.
Things will likely get chaotic once we do go out and meet them, but dealing with that is simply part of the job.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Arrival, Day 3
Our intended greeting was further delayed by Goat freezing over the foyer, which not only had to thaw out but caused Rabbit to slip and fall. Fortunately, she has since recovered and doesn't appear to be suffering a concussion.
Wolf, Rabbit, and I have now given initial explanations to the participants. All things considered, it went as well as it could have (aside from the others' bizarre decision to douse us in confetti and glitter). There was a surprising lack of violence.
Though I don't like having to obfuscate the truth from them, breaking the rules will apparently deprive us of the power to ultimately send them home, so honesty would be dire in this case. In any case, they are doubtful, but that might be for the better. I cannot deny that I would prefer to have their trust; however, to have it without doing anything to deserve it could be dangerous.
Personally, I struggle to believe some of the words that come out of my mouth, myself. It seems that some of the other Leaders can take this in stride, so it might say something about my previous life that all of this is incredulous to me. It's beyond my comprehension why I was chosen to handle this, in that case.
As an aside: we really should have prepared better accommodations for Archer. None of us were expecting the participants to be anything but humanoid, it seems.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
First Week, Day 1
Strangely, I have already regained a memory, as have the other Leaders. The arrival of the participants might have sparked it, as we all seem to remember the same thing: the existence of another dimension, within this one.
That aside, I spoke with a number of my team members today.
Kamiki Izumo is wary of us, as she has every right to be. Nevertheless, she gave me a gift, which in itself was unnecessary, never mind the effort put into it. She seems to be a kind girl, despite her blunt front. Most likely, she comes from unhappy circumstances. I'm concerned for her, but I do not believe that at this point, she would be receptive to any open gestures of support from someone she still has reason to distrust.
At the very least, however, I hope she can find comfort from any friends she makes here, such as Sora. I have to wonder how things will go with Shima Renzou, however.
Claude von Riegan—who, in his experiments, previously blew up the microwave—is a friendly, outgoing sort, though I don't doubt that his title is the "Schemer" for a reason. It wouldn't surprise me if his planned party is, in part, an attempt to lure out the remaining three Leaders. (Swan is rather unhappy about being unable to attend.)
Sharon Kreuger is not that dissimilar from Claude von Riegan, in that her friendly smile likely belies a sharpness she wields. For now, she is willing to go along, and she seems understanding of the circumstances, but I believe it would be prudent not to get on her bad side.
Spoke with Alyssa Zaidelle as well.
Aside from those team members, a number of other participants approached me during the day.
Sora is a friendly and trusting child, if to a somewhat worrying extent. However, that kindness of his will likely attract many to him, and I hope they will be able to temper any naivety.
Alex Benedetto was also polite to me, although I'm aware that she does not entirely trust us.
Perhaps I shouldn't have teased Zuko—or Prince Zuko, as his data states—so much, but he did make it very easy. I will properly reflect on my actions, I promise.
Soo-won and Yoshizawa "Kasumi" were also friendly, though I am aware from Soo-won's meetings with Sergei Varishikov that there is more than meets the eye. It is jarring how openly kind Yoshizawa Kasumi was, though.
As a final note, I have no problems if my participants want to have a healthy, consensual sex life, but I would rather not have to be a voyeur. The one saving grace, at least, is that I can tune into a different participant's happenings instead.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
First Week, Day 3
I spoke with Sergei Varishikov—or Blanca, as he's called—today. It is difficult to know what to make of him just yet, other than that he's a dangerous man. Though, it seems that I'm describing many people here that way.
We had our first proper nova collection today, although it appears that nova has been drawn towards the participants even without us realizing it. While I cannot say the day went without mishaps, it certainly could have gone worse and so I will conclude this incident as a success.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
First Week, Day 4
Met with Dorothy MacBean today. She brought up the idea of similarities within a team, and I wonder if there's some merit to the theory. I can't help but feel that from what I've seen, some of my team members have certain behaviours in common. Whether or not they reflect in me, I cannot yet say.
ETA: It's past 11 PM now and I appear to be locked inside my room, for some reason. I would pray that this sense of foreboding is only my imagination, but I can't bring myself to believe that.
Let everyone be safe, at least.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
First Week, Day 5
Why the hell is someone deadAs expected, especially after we all fell unconscious, something has gone wrong. Ichinose Hajime has turned up dead. It must have been by the hands of another participant, as we Leaders are incapable of seriously harming them, and yet I suspect they did not act purely on their own volition. A participant, on their own, would not be able to alter the state of the Realm like this.It is dangerous to blindly point fingers at one another, but if we cannot figure out the truth of what happened, that may yet happen.
Some of us are faring better than the others. I cannot imagine what Wolf and Goat's lives were like before this, for them to accept this so calmly, however unhappily. Tiger and Swan are shocked and upset; Rabbit is perhaps taking it the worst of everyone.
I can't say I'm looking forward to facing the participants tomorrow. Still, we can't run away from this. If anything, the participants must be more shaken than us, so it is our job to do whatever we can to help them.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
First Week, Day 7
Regardless of all else, including one's feelings on the death penalty, Virid Visette Viridian was only a child. He didn't deserve that.
Everyone is upset, as is their right.
I need to do something I don't know how though I just want to sleep and not have to wake up and deal with any of thisAs their support, we'll have to find a way to rectify to the situation. I would pray that nothing like this ever happens again, but the disruption in the nova concerns me. There is also the matter of the fact that Virid Visette Viridian could not have acted on his own; if a Leader is in fact responsible, we will need to handle that as well.DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Second Week, Day 1
I gave Claude von Riegan the team hint, in order to point him towards Kamiki Izumo. Hopefully, he understood, without it being so obvious that it was a breach of the rules. I want them to be able to support one another.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Second Week, Day 2
Met with Kano Shuuya. An interesting child, although I was already aware of that from his interactions with others.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Second Week, Day 3
Claude von Riegan found Kamiki Izumo, as I was hoping he would.
Kamiki Izumo then called for me again. It went better than I expected; she really is a kind child. What she said concerns me, though: I felt nothing from the Realm to suggest that it was its doing, and none of the other Leaders had such an ability as far as I know. However, I cannot dismiss the possibility that one of them kept quiet or developed another power—or that something else is afoot.
Sora also came to me to talk about what happened to Kamiki Izumo. Again, I am glad to know she has a good friend in him. My apologies to Sora, however, for the deception; it wasn't as if I could out her as my team member.
The group mass-gathered nova again today. It is a relief, at least, that that has not changed. Although their attempts were filled with antics, I believe that the experience will help them bond.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Second Week, Day 4
Two groups of people came back from what we can only describe as a concentration of memories. Whose exactly, we don't yet know. However, it's clear that these incidents are dangerous, as both groups came back injured. I know what occurred purely through Blanca.
Speaking of which, he and I met for his "Rook" title. I won't deny that it's intimidating to be in the presence of someone mafia-adjacent, but for now, that is irrelevant and therefore there is no reason to show it. I do wonder, however, if he's still unaware of the Leaders' degree of omniscience. There is nothing to lose by trying to bait me, given that I'm not monitoring him 24/7, but it was a little amusing to see. We will see how his efforts with his title go.
Zuko showed me a report. It is eerily similar to mine, down to how it was formatted. I can only assume I wrote it, as these reports were my own initiative and not something the other Leaders are doing, as far as I know. However, I have no recollection of it, and I cannot imagine where it would fit in our timeline. I don't yet know how, but I'll have to look further into this.
I would pray that nothing happens tonight, but I already know through Hilda Valentine Goneril and Claude von Riegan's conversation that that is a futile hope. Cater's nova is "splintering", causing her memories to break. This is most likely what's affecting Claude von Riegan as well, though she is the root, rather than him. As a result, Rabbit has tasked Hilda Valentine Goneril with removing her, which will protect it from spreading.
I wish I could speak with Rabbit about it, but that would force me to reveal Claude von Riegan as my team member, and the consequences for breaking the rules are too great to risk.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Second Week, Day 5
Sharon Kreuger is dead. It seems we won't get that "normal chat", after all; at least, not in this dimension. Even knowing that she will be sent to the other, it doesn't take away the sting of death.
Soo-won killed her. By some coincidence, it seems that each person who took a life this week has felt the need to confess to someone on my team, and again, I cannot say anything. It might be for the best that I'm not on public duty this week, as I don't know if even I could maintain enough composure.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Third Week, Day 1
I spoke with Sharon Kreuger today, in the other dimension. Although I knew I would have to eventually, it was still more difficult than anticipated—though at this point, I am no longer certain if it's because of her or because of everything else. With each day that passes, it grows harder and harder to trust others.
Still, it remains my duty as Leader to provide my team members with what they want.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Third Week, Day 3
I'm going to be sickForgive me, Kamiki, Shima, Laine Brick.I have requested that Shima Renzou deal with Laine Brick's splintering. With this, I am able to confirm that it's real. At the very least, however, the infected will stabilize once more in the other dimension—though I cannot bring myself to think that that changes the fact that they're dead.DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Third Week, Day 6
Shima Renzou was found.
DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Fourth Week, Day 1
It has been roughly a month since the Leaders woke up here, though that is only to my immediate knowledge. With what I suspect, we may have been here for much longer.
Yesterday, two of my memories returned to me. I know now that I worked for an anonymous help line for a year, before I transferred departments within the same company. I remember working with Subject No. 001, and that I failed. My superiors said that my support was insufficient, and therefore I should become more involved; they then said that I had gotten too involved and that it was my job as support not to interfere. One way or another, I had ruined Subject No. 001's prospects.
History repeats itself here. No matter what I do, it seems to be the wrong thingOne line in particular stands out to me: that I had to decide who I was to Subject No. 001. Here, I find myself with a similar question: who is "Fox" to the participants?I cannot be their friend. Regardless of how amiable we may act, there is a boundary, which the previous week has made clear—although there may be no one else but Rabbit who fully understands this. However, behaving too distantly only encourages distrust.
I'm aware that I'm snapping. I need to maintain my composure betteThough it feels that the other Leaders don't struggle with walking this line as much as I do, so it may be a personal failing.Nevertheless, what Blanca told Lup may be true. Who I am and where I came from is of no importance: the only thing that should matter to the participants is if I can help them, and how useful I am to them. That might be the answer to the question.
I say that, but even then, I'm selfishly relieved that Kamiki Izumo doesn't seem to hate me, like I thought she would after what happened with Renzou Shima. It's more than I dDATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Fourth Week, Day 7
Emet-Selch's life was saved today. Most likely, through the use of another title. That no one had to die today is a relief to many, including myself.
I know now how Yoshizawa Sumire died. It's a relief to know that she didn't suffer after all. As horrible as it still is to think of, at this point, we have to take what small mercies we can get.
Though I will need to speak with Blanca, even if presumably not soon given how rarely he calls for me. Unfortunately, it seems that it's only after he asks that I finally have advice on how he should carry out his role. I don't want to send a witch hunt after Ange le Carré, so I don't know if I should out her, but I should at least help him where I can. Furthermore, the more he "confirms" Ange le Carré's innocence, the more people will suspect Kamiki Izumo by process of elimination.
Of course, she didn't kill anyone, and I didn't regain any memories this week. However, what Alyssa Zaidelle went through three days ago makes me wonder.
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Leader: Fox
Fifth Week, Day 6
My deepest apologies to Sharon Kreuger, who almost certainly expected me to speak freely to everyone that she sent to me. Unfortunately, I hardly know most of them, never mind trusting them with this information.
They might not even believe me, regardleWith that said, it may not matter—it looks like it is spreading, and most people will know by the end of the week. If it comes from the removed, though, then the consequences are still on my hands, as the removed most likely know because of Sharon Kreuger to begin with.Dorothy MacBean has successfully found everyone on my team, with the exception of Alyssa Zaidelle. She certainly wasn't kidding when she said she was determined to. Once more, I hope that they will all be able to support one another. I don't know if Kamiki Izumo and Claude Von Riegan can reconcile, but at the very least, I don't believe they will allow this to interfere with trying to help everyone.
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Leader: Fox
Sixth Week, Day 7
It looks like the roles found the final one, the Pawn. As expected, the role belongs to Wolf's team.
I can't believe they thought it was equally plausible that I was hiding a secret living team member and second role.My team is still below the minimum count to revive the dead, as Dorothy MacBean was unable to stay awake during Thursday night. We'll see if that changes next week; it will have to, given the deadline.
As of this week, I remember Onoya An. Though I still have no recollection of the incident in the photo I was given, at least I know who she is now.
I wouldn't wish this on her, but I wish she was withDATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Seventh Week, Day 1
I showed my face to Kamiki Izumo, at least. Putting aside other Leaders, she, Sharon Kreuger, and Zuko are probably the only participants I'd trust that with at this point.
Although, perhaps I should have been the better person and given Blanca what he wanted, considering what I said previously. I'm meant to assist them and to be manipulated as needed; my personal feelings should be irrelevant. I sincerely believe that they all wish to rescue everyone, and of course I will support them with everything I have. Logically, even if any kindness on Blanca's part is merely him trying to lower my guard, I can't afford to be wary if it's interfering with that endeavour.
However, if I can speak selfishly for a moment: I don't want my identity, or my trust, to be nothing more than a tool for people to use.
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Leader: Fox
Seventh Week, Day 3
Everything I said in my previous report was pointless, apparently. The Realm has taken it upon itself to deem our masks unnecessary now.
Whether this is a good or bad sign remains to be seen.
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Leader: Fox
Seventh Week, Day 4
That was a horribly awkward Rook meeting.
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Leader: Fox
Seventh Week, Day 7
May Dorothy MacBean find some measure of peace.
I now recall the details of the ReLIFE experiment. More importantly, for the purposes of this place, I also remember part of one past cycle in the Realm.
Swan had Tiger killed, using Ichinose Hajime. That is knowledge I had within the memory itself, of Sharon Kreuger coming for me and slitting my throat. This is probably one I'm better off never mentioning the details of, especially to her.
That this, of all things, is the memory I regain begs some questions—but at this point, I don't know if they're worth bringing up. Whether or not Tiger was the one who ordered Virid Visette Viridian to kill Ichinose Hajime could be irrelevant; we're almost at the end, so there may be no point in causing any discord among us.
Admittedly, if I were to be completely honest, that may only be an excuse. By this point, I have so little energy for much of anything.I told Kamiki Izumo, at least, since she asked.DATE: ???
Leader: Fox
Eighth Week, Day 5
All of the removed have returned. Everyone has regained their memories, as have the Leaders.
It will take some time to adjust being "Yoake Ryo" again, rather than the Leader Fox. Still, I'm relieved that we've managed to make it this far.
We'll see what tomorrow brings.