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TL;CR MEME

1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.

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Edited 2020-11-22 20:00 (UTC)

spanish guitar playing in the bg as i stare at you

... wow okay, where to even start with this one. also i am so sorry holy crap.

I came into the game ready to get cr with you this time around crystal, I was like "it's been two games it's time!!!" and also I figured they'd at least get along because of the fact that Hansa really wouldn't be out of place in Gangsta -- like... I've said this plenty of times but I'm really not kidding when I say he is kind of an amalgamation of Worick and Nic in a number of ways, with the ridiculous strength, and the kinda laid back and funny attitude. And even if he doesn't have half the hidden-trauma Worick and Nic have, that wasn't necessarily a bad thing?

And then, like. Everything happened so much? The mod's RNG was so powerful this game, I'm genuinely scared. I woke up on Monday Week 1 to your dm like "hey they're affection week partners!" and was like "neat!!" and then we smash cut to Sunday and both of us are just staring into the distance with Mii Music blasting in the background as we descend into hell, only stopping two weeks later to grab teej and marie by the necks so we can all drag each other down Together.

ANYWAY.

There are actually a number of points where things might have gone wrong -- and I think this why I'm constantly so amazed by how well this all worked because every point where things could've gone South or not been as happy as they ended up being... was, well, there? But by the time they reached it someone had already done something that would guarantee a positive outcome? There were a lot of emotional landfills with Alex that could've just collapsed out under her but Hansa especially, but also all the boys, just did things that re-enforced her and her emotional stance on things. It's amazing.

So week 1 was just... literally all that foundation work, really. In canon, Alex starts with a healthy and understandable fear of Twilights, so while she's appreciative of Nic, she's also terrified of him when he's being especially blood-thirsty, or fighting something. Her mother was killed by a Twilight, so she's understandbly wary of them in general, but also acknowledges that she's scared of them because she doesn't understand them, and takes steps to change this herself. So by her canon point she's comfortable with the Twilights she knows.

Something like... Hansa's cyborg-ness could've been that? Like there could've been an uncertainty to their interactions knowing just how strong he was, but... he immediately told her. It made sense he did because she hit him and he clanged, but it worked out in his favour because he was just immediately honest with her about that part of him, as much as he was willing to be. So she was able to process that and then... he spent the rest of the week never, ever causing her any kind of harm. Even if he had just admitted he had the kind of power to snap someone like a twig. He really established himself as someone comforting to her, because they, well, we know they just kept touching each other whenever they could. Scared? Here's Hansa, he's holding your hand. Uncertain? Here's Hansa with a comforting hand on your shoulder, Alex. Worried, nervous, upset because your son just got yeeted out an airlock and slit his own throat? Hansa! He's here to hug you. This was also her CYOA week and there's something to be said about going through Shinra HQ with a teenaged boy you desperately want to protect, passing out not knowing if you're going to live or die, and then waking up back in the plaza and--- Hansa's there. Everything about this week really turboed things for her, and Hansa went from basically a stranger to someone she held very dear, and she was incredibly grateful for all his support that week. And any fear she might have had was sort of negated by the fact she spent her whole week around him in the most vulnerable situations and it would've been no big issue to do something that could physically hurt her, when she was that close so frequently, but he didn't.

Also, like. She's not dead. It's not the end of the world to have an attractive, friendly guy keep showing up to dispense mutual affection at random intervals during the week. It's actually pretty nice, she absolutely did not hate that.

Annnnd then week 2 happened and they couldn't touch anymore. Alex is the sort of person who, if you gave her an Ikea cabinet to build, would read the manual through first, so I couldn't swing her accidentally touching him and shocking them both first thing that week -- also she'd already had something like that happen with Hua Cheng when they woke up, but I am glad we managed to work it in somehow. Going from constantly being affectionate with someone to literally nothing was... actually pretty tough for her? Alex's "love language" for lack of a better phrase is very much non-verbal and touch based, and having that taken away was pretty isolating. She missed him, and that was surprising in and of itself, because it wasn't like they weren't still talking to each other? And seeing each other? And then there were all the emotions being flung around, and it was impossible to hide that she was incredibly fond of him at that point because her emotions were just out there in the wild.

He still kept looking out for her as well? Emotionally, when he talked her out of the panic attack she was having as it was becoming more and more apparently she was really losing her memories again. And even hurt himself to help her in the mini-event -- she was pretty conscious of not touching him after the electricity + metal body parts thing really seemed powerful when they did accidentally touch, and then when she was injured he just... grabbed her and got her out of there, and was apologising to her afterwards because he'd shocked her? ... Boy.

I said this in a DM, but looking back now and I can pinpoint when Alex realised "Oh, no. I really like this guy" and it was that moment in the mini-event, but sort of comboed with him putting himself in a situation that hurt him to get her safety? Sometimes it is just silly little things that make someone stop and go "Oh. I like you. I like you a lot." and sometimes that silly little thing is a guy fighting a crocodile and just being unapologetically happy about it afterwards, and she felt all that happiness and it just sort of hit her that she really liked that. Him being happy. And she wanted to see that again, and see him being that happy again. It was also that weekend that he kinda find out about her old line of work -- I think, actually, despite it being one of the first things people know about her in canon and reading up on canon, only Hansa and Blanca worked out she was an ex-prostitute? Blanca because of the context of what they were talking about, when he was telling her about Ash, and Hansa because she was telling him about her cyoa and Barry came up during that, and it's hard to talk about why one man scares you so much without the fact he was her ex-pimp coming up some way or another, but Hansa just put those context clues together and he didn't judge her for it? He was just sorry about what happened to her, rather than dismissing her or judging her like she'd sort of expected people to. It's not necessarily like she's ashamed of it even if she certainly isn't happy or proud about it either, but it's a part of her that she didn't want coming up if she could help it. Telling him as much as she did felt like the right thing for her to go, and the fact he just listened and accepted it and nothing changed... that was important as well.

... [gestures at week 3 tiredly]. Wowie!

Okay, no for real. Again, there were a lot of things here that could've changed things but I'll work through it -- though I will say the fact they just immediately started with the casual touching again, the second the previous week's rule was gone will never not be funny to me. They were worse after a week of no contact as well and I just... guys? Hello? Calm down.

Then cyoa....2! happened and this is another point where things could've gone differently? I'm sorry this is so long and I haven't even covered everything but I need to dip into canon a bit here. Canon-point wise Alex has come from a point where she's literally just had the world she thought she'd built crumble under her feet. Everything's still onging, and some of my takes on her situation and interpretations are my conclusions based on what I know, but it's heavily implied that everyone she knows already knew her, she's just forgotten them. We know she met Nicholas before the start of the series, and it seems like she might've known Loretta too, which implies all Loretta's staff might know her. But no one tells her any of this? They're all just weirdly insistent she needs to leave Ergastulum as soon as she can, and while I interpret that as coming from a place of caring, Alex doesn't know that. So she's just being bombarded by people she's trying to get to know and people she cares about telling her to get out of town because she's not like them, and you can tell it plays on her mind and knocks her confidence more and more as the series goes on and she's just constantly reminded how little she knows about the people she cares for, and how little they're willing to let her know.

She's just had a triple whammy of realising she didn't understand Nicholas enough to help him, not being able to stop Worick and then finding the consequences of Worick's actions bleeding on their coffee table and realising that this place she thought she'd found for herself was a lie and now it's gone, all at once. And there's this wall between her, Nicholas and Worick that she can't really pass? And twenty odd-years of connection there she doesn't understand and she sort of... has this line in the sand she wants to cross but can't?

So, that... could've happened here. That sort of "line-in-the-sand" mentality. Specifically, when Hansa told her about his cyoa she was completely heartbroken by it because... loss isn't new to her, and neither is losing a place you felt was home so she felt that, in her own way. But she was also aware that there was this connection now that she, again, couldn't comprehend or bypass so ... if she was brave enough to tell him how she felt, she'd sort of accepted that Emet-Selch would be a part of whatever came of it or she... might not have bothered? Like just put a lid on it and filed it away and not said anything. And then the trial happened, and Emet was voted guilty and she said "fuck the nova" and voted for someone innocent because she couldn't bring herself to vote Emet and cause Hansa harm indirectly. It was around here that things probably started to get all mixed and jumbled, but it was also a re-enforcement that Hansa was someone she'd do almost anything for, if she could. Even if it was just a drop in the bucket of what was happening all around them.

If he'd told her he didn't want to talk to anyone on Saturday night she probably would've decided on shelving things and backing off, honestly. Not permanently because she'd want to make sure he was okay after Emet died, but because he lived she might've just stepped back after that. But instead he let her in, talked to her, admitted he was happy to have her there and then told her he cared about her deeply and that was sort of when things changed? From this sort of "oh there's a wall there I can't pass now" to "oh, there's a wall there but he's thrown down a ladder and told me I can come up".

And then Emet survived and she was, genuinely, so relieved. And Hansa was so happy about it and like... that whole Sunday was so much but in a good way. And she just felt so happy, like whatever happened, it was okay? Things had worked out better than she thought they could. It felt a lot like something had gone right, for the first time since they all got here.

Then we got confessions week and we know how that went. She was going to tell him how she felt, no matter what the outcome was, because she wanted to and she felt comfortable enough to do so after that weekend, he just... beat her to it. And this is like... the third part where things could've gone differently but Hansa just limboed past the tripwires to safety -- he confessed to her first, and made sure she knew exactly where they stood and they he wasn't downplaying his feelings at all. He was being completely sincere with her. If she'd confessed to him and he'd accepted and then flung the OT4 suggestion at her, or if he hadn't been as clear as he was that he loved her and whatever she chose wasn't going to change that, or how he felt about her or where they stood, she might've... gone along with it, but not been as happy with it as she was. Her insecurities would have still been there in their own way.

But he made where they stood clear, and then just... offered her more on her own terms? And then all of them were willing to talk to her and make their positions clear -- and there was the fact that whatever she chose was the "right" answer, too. There was no pressure for her to do something she didn't want, or to force herself to feel something for the others if she didn't. Her own terms and what she was comfortable with was the right answer. And, like... they gave her a place. She'd come to the Realm berating herself for thinking she found a place to belong, and then the three of them just turned to her and said "there's a place for you here, however you want it, at whatever pace you want it" and they all agreed to just be honest with her. Obviously everyone has secrets, but when to came to this and them, they were all fine just being open and not hiding things from her, and that was just... really important. That guarantee that she didn't have to question if she belonged there because they made it clear she did, and the fact that she'd always have a place there -- with Hansa, and with them was probably the biggest game changer for her. They gave a lonely woman somewhere to belong and let her fit in in her own way. And there's something very humbling about someone coming back from ten years away, having formed a whole other life for himself in the process, and saying "-- and I realised I was still in love with you", essentially.

Things just keep happening that hammer home how... bad? It would be if he'd died? Luckily no one wanted to fuck with the cyborg, especially not when he just straight up went feral, but -- she went through that very real fear during the execution in Week 3. Which, side note, I love that your phrasing in that tag sent everyone into a spiral there lmao. But that kind of realisation of what was on the line, like a proper realisation. She'd gone through it a bit when Kano had been executed, but this was like an extra times ten and really hit home how much she didn't want him to die.

She's very much aware that she's very... normal. She's not a fighter, magic, immortal, or anything that she would consider uniquely special. She's a bit stubborn and selfish and willing to throw herself in front of a blade for people she cares about -- but she's not some superhuman fighter or gifted individual, and honestly she worried a lot that the support she got from him was maybe one-sided. Like she kept taking from him and not giving anything back, because she couldn't physically protect him in the ways he did for her, or do what felt like much of anything, really. But after weekend 3 and confessions week I feel like this settled a lot more? She still worries about it, but doesn't feel like something so huge and impossible for her to work back. She can't, and doesn't, ever want to stop him being who is -- but she's also not big-headed enough to think she could change him anyway? Not in huge ways -- but she worries about him, especially here and when the memloss aspect kept taking things from him that were important: his faith, his knowledge of his cyborg parts, and then of who he became after he was adopted and trained as an Executor. But he wouldn't be him if he wasn't doing something ridiculous, or fighting the wildlife, or throwing himself at things recklessly, despite all the grey hairs it's probably going to give her because she can't? Patch up a metal limb and wait for it to heal if he gets, I don't know, bitten by a dinosaur? But this isn't the first time she's been aware of how little she can do and accepted it. She probably accepted it a lot easier here. At least she knows there are plenty of people looking out for him.

It felt a bit like things shifted over time - Hansa spent a lot of the early game looking out for her and propping her up, but that kind of helped her? That, and a lot of conversations she had with other people about her memory loss and her fears meant that by the end of the game she was actually more stable than I'd anticipated her being. At all. And she was able to give something back. Reassuring him when he was all out of sorts in week 6, and trying to protect him in the only ways she could -- listening, emotionally. I really liked realised that was what was happening, as it was happening. Just this slow growth that started with him and grew to cover many more people as time went on. So many of the people who supported her early on, she was able to support in turn and given that she's prone to insecurity and worry that she's not good enough this was such a good step. Especially when it comes to the OT4 for cementing that everything was on equal ground? Or as equal as she could expect it to be after a few weeks and with everything that was happening.

The number of times she might not have been as stable, settled, or happy are really high, but every time she stumbled across one of those points it was already being fixed by the people around her and the support she was getting - especially from Hansa. The shipping was a surprise, but here at endgame there's just this feeling like it's impossible for her not to love him as much as she does. He's such a major factor in why she got through this game without crumbling under the weight of her own fears and insecurities. Gangsta is... still very vague about her past and her background because it's still unravelling, but I do think she's probably been in love before. But I don't necessarily think it's been good for her? This might be the first time she's loved someone who reciprocated and... just treated her like she was someone they loved. Which is a whole overwhelming, and overwhelmingly good thing all at the same time and she's still adjusting and trying to be worthy of all that, but ... it means a lot to her.

To her, he's safety. He's never given her a reason to think she won't be safe with him -- and they've even had this conversation in person, sort of? About wanting the other to be safe. It's a warm and important thing, like she could fall backward and know he'd catch her, and she'd want to do the same for him. And for someone who hasn't had that, let alone from the men in her life, in a long time and in a form that is solid and certain... that's incredibly precious to her.

Also, y'know. Like I said on the hot or not chart. Boy hot. She's not blind?

Alex was the only person in this entire game Kano was 100% comfortable being real around and idk what else to say

honestly looking at kano that might be the nicest thing i hear today

man. ori, where do i start with these shenanigans.

i feel like i'm going to say this with so many entries here, but alex is just... protective of kids by default. she's a big sister/surrogate mother, how could she not be? it's in her bones to be that way. even the ones she knows are competent enough and don't need her to protect them, she kinda does by default?

but respectfully. if she's just going to get in the way she'll try not to stamp all over them but... she will keep an eye out for them. and i feel like this how things went with kano? maybe less that he didn't need her looking out for him, because she didn't really know what he could or couldn't do because he kept everything so close to his chest. but also because he didn't want to talk about things -- any attempt to do so, or to show him any kind of casual affection just kind of... didn't work? alex is very touch centric, so that was a little weird for her. but she has her own hang ups and secrets and such, so she didn't want to push him.

she just... didn't want to stop talking to him because he didn't want to talk back? he obviously didn't mind being around people in some way, shape, or form because he sought her out for things like destroying the heck out of pinkie pie, or sitting next to her at the feast. even if he just wanted her food.

she sort of felt like she failed him, after the trial. she refused to vote for kano, because she didn't think it was right but... well. there were a couple of times where she felt she was a little voice in a storm when it came to what she was and wasn't able to do. she blamed herself for not pushing him to see if he was hiding more scalpels, but on the other hand she was kinda... i don't know if "proud" or "glad" is the right word? but the fact he handed over any at all seemed significant to her?

there's a lot she didn't understand about kano, but like. i sort of think she reacted to him in a similar way she did to rufus -- kano was someone she liked and, against a lot of common sense probably, he was someone she was fond of. the things he did tell her she tried to listen to, but she didn't want to push because... well. she has things that she doesn't want to share either. and then he talked about being seen as a monster and that hit her, in a way? she knows people who are treated like that when they're... y'know. not not dangerous, and have done bad things but the real reason they're feared is for something that they couldn't control or help... hearing that from someone else was hard. especially because she used to be guilty of being afraid of them without understanding them herself, so... she didn't want to give kano the feeling he was something to be feared, if she could.

she tried to send him messages too when i, becks, remembered but he never replied 😔 well. apparently he did once but i got the message late. 😔 kano her messages....

-- she definitely gave him that photo back. she would've kept it safe until he was able to take it back. (even immediately, even though that didn't get tagged.)

pats hands rapidly here

/snaps fingers ominously

I don't know what to tell you Marie, I deleted your tl;cr when he died. None tl;cr for you.

[ makes a sound like a slowly deflating balloon ]

geez marie i thought hansa's was going to be the long and complicated one to write.

OKAY. So. Alex and Chiron.

I liked that they got along from the beginning? I've talked in other tl;crs about how she benefitted greatly from the amount of support she got from people early on, helping her with the fact she was getting a double memory loss hit and talking her through the situations that were going on around them, and Chiron was someone she just found easy to talk to? She enjoyed spending time with him, and hearing about him and his thoughts on things.

He was someone she could go to to talk about things that had happened and share ideas, so it just sort of made sense eventually that she was going to tell him what her team was. AND THIS PART IS JUST... genuinely one of my favourite parts about their entire relationship - the fact that Alex Benedetto looked at the 7 foot centaur who was politely yet menacingly threatening her and went "LET'S GO, I'LL THROW HANDS IF I HAVE TO". She is, at her core, such a big sister. She'll protect kids wherever she can and whenever she's available and she adores Rabbit. Like by this point she'd seen under Rabbit's mask and knew she was younger that Alex's actual little brother and she really, really would've thrown hands with him if she had to. And that's why she was willing to accept his terms and conditions for protecting his team leader in exchange for the same conditions on protecting hers---

-- and then they were on the same team. And it was so fuckin' funny. I just remember us screaming at each other on discord and it was like 2am for me and it was so funny.

But that changed things as well. He went from being someone she was comfortable turning to for advice and to talk to, to being like a confidant. They both had the same team so she had this anchor to what was going on, and someone to talk to about things that were happening that weren't so obvious. Regaining memories, items, things like that. She could check with him and find out if it was something unique to her, and trust he'd keep it quiet if it was, or if it was something all of the Bunnies were experiencing. Also, y'know. Being willing to throw hands with a centaur bonds people. Apparently.

AND THEN WEEK 3 HAPPENED. And like. Genuinely, if you asked me leading up to that point "hey becks, do you think you and marie are gonna ship this game?" I would've 100% said "nope, not at all" and then week 3 got us. And I need to read all the stuff that was going down between Chiron and Emet-Selch around this time, and there was a lot going on with Hansa and Alex annnd there's a whole cyoa to digest as well -- but from the perspective of Chiron and Alex, it was really that point in the trial where Alex realised there was something going on and Chiron tried to claim he was the guilty party which was where things just started to shift slightly. Like, Alex did what she was able to to try and move things on and get people to focus on Sumire, and she refused to vote for Emet because she knew it would hurt Hansa deeply -- and, apparently, Chiron. Annnd then everything went to heck, none of them could change anything, and she felt so small and helpless in that moment -- and did you know that Chiron has managed to make her cry twice now? Bitch ass ho horse. I'm writing this before the end of the game so the jury is out on if she'll cry because of him AGAIN.

It was kind of a combination of everything? What happened with Emet-Selch, how it was going to hurt Hansa, seeing Chiron try to throw himself onto a sword in Emet's place that made her realise "oh, no, that's something I really don't want to happen" -- she was really all over the place when she slapped him. But she was speaking very truthfully, that she didn't want him to throw himself into danger because he felt like he should, or because he thought he was a lesser loss than someone else? So like... things probably shifted around then, and like. She already adored Chiron? But this really re-enforced it. And then they got to share that relief and happiness when suddenly everything went right against all odds. That little moment where everything was okay, and they both had all this happiness and hopefulness for things that were to come now that neither of them had lost anything that was important to them, or seen someone who mattered to them hurt in ways they didn't know how they could heal.

...

And then they became a fruple. ( CANNED LAUGHTER IN THE BACKGROUND ) Which... I made so many "the horse is a surprise" jokes but Chiron wasn't someone difficult to her to get used to. It was more... she loves Hansa, and Hansa and Emet had a connection that was older than anything else they had here and had experienced things she couldn't understand, so she'd assumed if she was brave enough to tell Hansa she loved him, Emet-Selch would be a part of whatever happened, if anything. It was more... a pleasant surprise that it included Chiron because he and Emet-Selch had worked things out to a point they were comfortable with. After their talks at the weekend she was genuinely so glad to hear that Chiron was getting something good out of all this, and would be getting some answers as well to all the emotionally vulnerable things he'd laid at Emet-Selch's feet.

There were so many points in this game that something could've gone wrong, and ironically the ... creation of this OT4 SHOULD have been one of them but all four of them just... did everything that they had to do to ease the concept in without snagging on something and breaking in the process. When you've said that Chiron felt a bit superfluous at the beginning, Alex could've felt the same. Like she was intruding on something the other three all had, but they were so chill about the idea and the fact they came up with it but didn't force it on her was probably the biggest thing that made it work. It wasn't a case of "hey Alex, we're dating now, you want in?" it was "here's an idea, no one's going to pressure you into anything, it's just whatever you're comfortable with and know there's a place for you" -- and their willingness to communicate and be open with her that made it a much smoother start than it could've been.

And then they all just fitted together comfortably? Like they had those couple of weeks to just get used to each other and how they all fit and it was nice. Having a place that she did really belong, and being shown that she was supposed to be there was a really big thing. Canon is very much about the fact Alex doesn't really have a place, and even if the people around her care for her, they're trying to get her to leave for what they deem as her own good, without really explaining to her why. So Hansa, Emet and Chiron basically doing... the entire opposite of that was so good.

But there was also... Chiron just losing his everything in week 5, and that was so scary. Alex genuinely thought he was splintering and there was just this moment of fear and loss like, she'd just been handed something precious and told she could keep it and then pieces of it were being torn out of her hands again without warning. And maybe it was naive of her to think "everything's okay now" because it really, really wasn't: they were still trapped in the Realm and time was still ticking on to the next death, but it was so frustrating that all she could do was try and keep him calm. She couldn't fix anything, or improve it, only try and keep him deflecting the worst parts of it and it was both something that was positive, because she was able to help him out, but frustrating because she couldn't do everything she wanted to help him fully.

It was scary as well because this was the week all the bunnies found each other -- or rather the first full week after they did, and there was this feeling like she had to hold things together? Chiron didn't know who he was, and suddenly they had five kids that she just instantly felt responsible for -- even if, y'know, most of them were fine and didn't need her fussing over them, she has an over-protective streak when it comes to kids. She was still grappling with the fact she couldn't do anything all the way to the end of the game, really -- Mob dying, losing Chiron and Ochako the week after, everything Clem had to do without their direct support... all she could really do was react to things after the fact and feel helpless.

And, right. Let's talk about Chiron dying! :| Even if it was sort of an inevitable thing, after they spoke with Emet and Hansa about the fact it could still happen, it still hit her hard when it did. Like, up until this point SOMEHOW most of her closest CR had scraped by. She'd lost a couple of people she cared for a lot, but Chiron was the first really big, heavy hit and it got coupled by an equally heavy one with Ochako dying at the same time. And it was also maybe a little reality kick for her? She's used to being pushed aside for what people "have" to do -- Twilights work on contracts and she's been ignored by Nicholas and Worick in favour of them doing what they have to do, so she understood to a point what Chiron meant about duty, even if she didn't understand the sheer weight of it. But he'd seemed happier and a little more willing to entertain the idea of not shuffling off the mortal coil at the first chance he got -- they'd even talked about his contract with the realm and agreed Emet-Selch could take it over and then! He just! Yeeted himself in front of a Dorothy-controlled rollercoaster after leaving them some really rude flowers.

As funny as I make it sound, that is probably something he'll have to deal with now. She's never going to quite believe he's not going to do something he deems is right and just, at the cost of all their feelings. Maybe she'll believe him in the future if he says he's happy and doesn't want to go anywhere, but... not for a little bit. At the very least. SHE'S VERY TIRED. AND VERY TICKED WITH HER FAVOURITE HORSE, OKAY?

One thing I also wanted to kinda talk about as a parting shot is... like... the weird mix of whatever they are?

Mostly because I sort of use Hansa and Emet as opposite ends of the scale - one she's incredibly close to the other she's getting to know, and Chiron is obviously up at the Hansa end of the scale. She knows and trusts and loves him -- of course she does, she wouldn't have been so upset when he died if he was someone she didn't care about. She might've been a little more against the whole OT4 thing if he hadn't been the fourth part of it and it'd be someone else she didn't know all that well?

She loves him a lot okay. He's very important to her. Her emotional support pony. Even if Marie bullies me constantly.

me!

Mooobbbbb. A bunny... her caring/insecure twin... I love mob. 😔 He's such a good boy. Their CR wasn't complicated, but it was nice... even if I do keep missing you for lots of CR. Every time I'm like "I'm going! To get Siz CR this time!" and then I trip and fall and I'm like "NO!". I'll get it right one day, I promise.

In a way, Alex admires mob a lot? She's protective of children, but knows a lot of exceptional ones, and Mob follows this pattern as well. And not just because of his telekinetic powers? As someone who struggles with what he's able to do and who he wants to be, yet actively makes steps to understand and improve himself... she can't help but admire that about him. And she definitely thinks he's very brave. Bravery isn't always picking up a sword and fighting monsters, it's ... doing what you think is right to help a friend, even if other people are mad at you for it. Which is why she wasn't mad at him for using his gem to help Kano. She understood why he did it, and that he would've used it regardless, whoever was up for execution. But as she was fond of Kano herself, if anything she was actually a little grateful that he didn't have to go through any pain during that fight with Jeanne. Maybe it spoke to her a little more because it was helping someone she cared about.

Bravery is also speaking up in a group and saying that while you understand why everyone has to plan to kill someone, you personally aren't okay with it and don't know if you can, or want to be involved with the details. That sort of thing. It's being able to say "oh, I'm not comfortable here" and find a way to deal with or exit a situation. Which is to say, I'm fond of the truth or dare thread as well -- admittedly, at first because it was just really damn cute, and him telling her his limitations and what he wouldn't be comfortable with was good too. But also hearing that he sought out someone he knew would be kind to him and listen, so he could leave.

Mob came across as someone who tried his best whenever he could, and stuck to his own morals. There were a few times where he was very particular about things, like firmly agreeing with not forcing people to talk about things they don't want to -- and when he was trying to break out of the barrier, his kindness and drive still came out when he accidentally hurt her and stopped to make sure she was okay. Alex is someone who bottles her insecurities and tries to work through them herself and doesn't always feel she's changing anything about herself, but she's reluctant to admit that. So seeing Mob just being the sort of person who was always trying his best and trying to improve himself... made her proud? If that's the right phrase. It was nice to see.

And, you know. He was a bunny! Alex is automatically fond of her bunnies, and she was sad when he died. Because he's a kid, and he was part of a little group that meant something to her, even if they had only just found each other. She wanted to find out more about how he died, but they were locked in to focusing on getting the group to convict Jeanne so she had to let it go (... ha). She was very fond of him, and very sad that he was gone.