I can't stop you guys, but I'm not agreeing to it.
[ she's pragmatic, but even so, they all hate this because it's awful. ]
Like, let's say that both Fox and Swan kill members of our team. And then... two more people die from splintering. [ it could be more, who knows, but let's go with two, on random teams. ] In that case, you'd want to vote for a Fox, or a Swan so we get the nova for it. It's just... not a simple thing to plan for.
[ yeah. yeah. she almost hadn't said anything at all. she was almost willing to not venture into this necessary conversation, because how do you really believe that people will come back?
if it weren't for the messages from the dead, she wouldn't believe it. no world is that kind, is it? ]
If I'm willing to kill someone because I think they'll come back... I should be willing to let the same thing happen to me. I just wanted as much time as possible to find out what I can.
[He's been relatively silent through most of this, because he did promise to let the group decide their own affairs instead of taking the reins like an adult scolding a bunch of children.
... But even so.]
I know many of us have lost many memories, but I feel it... necessary to say that I have forgotten everything but a week of my life... and the memory I received back was only the reminder that I have died twice already.
[The realm is... cruel like that]
If it truly causes pain among you, I will say no more, but I feel as if I would be the best candidate.
[ it doesn't make him a better choice in her book, but there are no good choices. she looks pained by this whole discussion, and not just because of lingering heartache. everything they've done so far has been hard—but somehow, this is the worst of it.
still, she sees their logic. if they can truly bring people back—if they've already helped mob's return—then they should do what they can to make sure everyone can come back.
she reaches out to touch his elbow, gently. ]
...I'm not going to say anyone has to do this. But you're both right, we should... be prepared for it.
I will not... pretend as if I do not wish to live. Being here with everyone has given me that hope, at least. [He will make that clear to all, because he knows how quickly his offers ring self-sacrificial, and Hilda is right to scold them for so easily walking to their deaths.]
But it's still for the sake of a greater ending. We will prepare for that, too.
I just meant that - if it's like Clementine-san said - then no matter who volunteers for it, there's one team that can't lose someone. So if we work with them to hide as much as we can, then maybe they'll get out of the trial unscathed.
But it needs to be planned really carefully if it's going to work. And it doesn't account for if someone splinters.
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All of you stop jumping to your deaths. If we can't afford to let a killer get caught, then you can convince people to vote for you during trial.
[ extra bodies is not helpful at this point. ]
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What if one of our volunteers dies? I don't think it's bad to have a back up plan.
[ but please know that she hates this. ]
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[ she's pragmatic, but even so, they all hate this because it's awful. ]
Like, let's say that both Fox and Swan kill members of our team. And then... two more people die from splintering. [ it could be more, who knows, but let's go with two, on random teams. ] In that case, you'd want to vote for a Fox, or a Swan so we get the nova for it. It's just... not a simple thing to plan for.
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[ ... but she does concede a nod and a sigh. she knows hilda isn't arguing to be difficult. the situation is just bad. ]
You're right. It's hard to plan when there are variables we can't control.
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still, reviving anyone in her world is impossible, not in a way that matters. and sometimes, the dregs of that fear pull at her. ]
I know... I just don't want you guys to be so ready to die. ...You already did so much for us, Clem.
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if it weren't for the messages from the dead, she wouldn't believe it. no world is that kind, is it? ]
If I'm willing to kill someone because I think they'll come back... I should be willing to let the same thing happen to me. I just wanted as much time as possible to find out what I can.
But... This can't go on much longer.
And I would be really easy to frame.
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... But even so.]
I know many of us have lost many memories, but I feel it... necessary to say that I have forgotten everything but a week of my life... and the memory I received back was only the reminder that I have died twice already.
[The realm is... cruel like that]
If it truly causes pain among you, I will say no more, but I feel as if I would be the best candidate.
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[ it doesn't make him a better choice in her book, but there are no good choices. she looks pained by this whole discussion, and not just because of lingering heartache. everything they've done so far has been hard—but somehow, this is the worst of it.
still, she sees their logic. if they can truly bring people back—if they've already helped mob's return—then they should do what they can to make sure everyone can come back.
she reaches out to touch his elbow, gently. ]
...I'm not going to say anyone has to do this. But you're both right, we should... be prepared for it.
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[... A faint smile at that elbow touch]
I will not... pretend as if I do not wish to live. Being here with everyone has given me that hope, at least. [He will make that clear to all, because he knows how quickly his offers ring self-sacrificial, and Hilda is right to scold them for so easily walking to their deaths.]
But it's still for the sake of a greater ending. We will prepare for that, too.
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But it needs to be planned really carefully if it's going to work. And it doesn't account for if someone splinters.
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[ she doesn't feel any better about killing elsa just because she volunteered. in the end, she still fought back. she wanted to live. ]
It's a complicated thing to plan for! And I don't... want to see any of you die. Jeanne was so ready and—I hate it.
[ in her heart, she knows this is a good idea. but she's been practical this entire competition, and it sucks. ]
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[ no. she stops, shakes her head, and just. takes a step back from hilda, holding onto her daemon a little tighter. ]
None of us wants anyone else to die, no matter who they are or what team they're on.
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[ jeanne had accepted, even if she didn't want to. ]
Let's just be careful, okay? I don't want anyone to be too eager, that's all.
[ they were ready to fight tooth and nail to save her and clem this weekend—it's not an easy thing, to let them go now. ]