[ yeah. yeah. she almost hadn't said anything at all. she was almost willing to not venture into this necessary conversation, because how do you really believe that people will come back?
if it weren't for the messages from the dead, she wouldn't believe it. no world is that kind, is it? ]
If I'm willing to kill someone because I think they'll come back... I should be willing to let the same thing happen to me. I just wanted as much time as possible to find out what I can.
[He's been relatively silent through most of this, because he did promise to let the group decide their own affairs instead of taking the reins like an adult scolding a bunch of children.
... But even so.]
I know many of us have lost many memories, but I feel it... necessary to say that I have forgotten everything but a week of my life... and the memory I received back was only the reminder that I have died twice already.
[The realm is... cruel like that]
If it truly causes pain among you, I will say no more, but I feel as if I would be the best candidate.
[ it doesn't make him a better choice in her book, but there are no good choices. she looks pained by this whole discussion, and not just because of lingering heartache. everything they've done so far has been hard—but somehow, this is the worst of it.
still, she sees their logic. if they can truly bring people back—if they've already helped mob's return—then they should do what they can to make sure everyone can come back.
she reaches out to touch his elbow, gently. ]
...I'm not going to say anyone has to do this. But you're both right, we should... be prepared for it.
I will not... pretend as if I do not wish to live. Being here with everyone has given me that hope, at least. [He will make that clear to all, because he knows how quickly his offers ring self-sacrificial, and Hilda is right to scold them for so easily walking to their deaths.]
But it's still for the sake of a greater ending. We will prepare for that, too.
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[ ... but she does concede a nod and a sigh. she knows hilda isn't arguing to be difficult. the situation is just bad. ]
You're right. It's hard to plan when there are variables we can't control.
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still, reviving anyone in her world is impossible, not in a way that matters. and sometimes, the dregs of that fear pull at her. ]
I know... I just don't want you guys to be so ready to die. ...You already did so much for us, Clem.
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if it weren't for the messages from the dead, she wouldn't believe it. no world is that kind, is it? ]
If I'm willing to kill someone because I think they'll come back... I should be willing to let the same thing happen to me. I just wanted as much time as possible to find out what I can.
But... This can't go on much longer.
And I would be really easy to frame.
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... But even so.]
I know many of us have lost many memories, but I feel it... necessary to say that I have forgotten everything but a week of my life... and the memory I received back was only the reminder that I have died twice already.
[The realm is... cruel like that]
If it truly causes pain among you, I will say no more, but I feel as if I would be the best candidate.
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[ it doesn't make him a better choice in her book, but there are no good choices. she looks pained by this whole discussion, and not just because of lingering heartache. everything they've done so far has been hard—but somehow, this is the worst of it.
still, she sees their logic. if they can truly bring people back—if they've already helped mob's return—then they should do what they can to make sure everyone can come back.
she reaches out to touch his elbow, gently. ]
...I'm not going to say anyone has to do this. But you're both right, we should... be prepared for it.
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[... A faint smile at that elbow touch]
I will not... pretend as if I do not wish to live. Being here with everyone has given me that hope, at least. [He will make that clear to all, because he knows how quickly his offers ring self-sacrificial, and Hilda is right to scold them for so easily walking to their deaths.]
But it's still for the sake of a greater ending. We will prepare for that, too.