Something about that word alone gets her to flinch. She reaches up for the hand on her head, taking between both of her own with an insitent grip. Behind her, her daemon trots over, a wolf thay looks very On Fire but whose tail is wagging steadily, if not a little low.]
You and the others are in a lot of danger now, though...
I hward about what Won-san did, with Sharon-san. Does... does it count if it was in self-defense?
Okay... [A shaky exhale out, squeezing his hand.] Okay. That means that... somebody on our team just... needs to kill one more person.
[She hates that, and it shows on her face.]
I, um... I tried to send a message to Chijin about it. I don't know if it will make sense to him, but... I hope he'll at least tell the others. I think some of the others have been trying to talk to him anyway, so... maybe he knows a lot more than he ever could talk about.
...
Goat... even if we do remove a second person somehow... what happens if they get caught? What... happens if the rest of our team really does get removed?
[She'll nod, looking a little relieved. Sometimes you are the Child and nobody tells you jack shit. :(]
I tried to let him know how much is left, and to try to have people talk a little more if they can. If we only have two weeks... five more people still need to die.
[Her grip tightens as her eyes fall to the floor.]
...I wish there was more I could do from here. That I could talk to the Realm. That... I could give up more of myself, like Goat-kun, if it meant I could help them all a little more.
[She lets in a frustrated breath... then lets it out, trying to let the tension in her shoulders unravel. Her daemons settles onto the floor, lying its head down.]
I know. I'm gonna do whatever I can, remember?
Goat-kun, if I asked you a favor, could... you try to do it, as best as you could? It's for Chijin.
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I think, for Chijin, it's important that he knows he's... remembered, you know?
If he ever comes and talks to you, until we can get our team together again... could you give him a flower from the forest, whenever you can remember, any day you can remember?
[Her hands sink in front of her, fingers clenching tight.] I think all of this is getting really hard for everyone to watch, but Chijin... he's gentle, just like you, and I... I'm really worried about both of you. I can still talk to Goat-kun, and still let you know I believe in you no matter what... but I want him to know I still believe in him, too, even if I can't pray like I want. Even if...
Even if he thinks he's just repeating something horrible. I think he needs to be reminded that he's loved, and that he isn't alone.
I think... especially, some place like this, it's really good to know somebody understands you. I know you said you have memories you'd rather nobody see, and I think Chijin is the same.
So I'm really glad you both have each other, Goat-kun. I hope you both treasure that.
Chijin's been helping me to... mmm, well, not really change it, but to have a different view on it. He's lived a lot of life where I haven't .
It's why I'm glad I have friends like him, and like you. I know you'll tell me if you think my kindness is leading me down a path that's difficult, so I can make that choice as best I can.
I... know the next couple weeks are going to be really hard. But I hope you know you can always talk to us, just like we ask to talk to you, Goat-kun.
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Something about that word alone gets her to flinch. She reaches up for the hand on her head, taking between both of her own with an insitent grip. Behind her, her daemon trots over, a wolf thay looks very On Fire but whose tail is wagging steadily, if not a little low.]
You and the others are in a lot of danger now, though...
I hward about what Won-san did, with Sharon-san. Does... does it count if it was in self-defense?
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Yes.
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Okay... [A shaky exhale out, squeezing his hand.] Okay. That means that... somebody on our team just... needs to kill one more person.
[She hates that, and it shows on her face.]
I, um... I tried to send a message to Chijin about it. I don't know if it will make sense to him, but... I hope he'll at least tell the others. I think some of the others have been trying to talk to him anyway, so... maybe he knows a lot more than he ever could talk about.
...
Goat... even if we do remove a second person somehow... what happens if they get caught? What... happens if the rest of our team really does get removed?
Do you know?
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Our team has already been aware of the situation for a while, and they have discussed it. They will take care of everything they need to.
... I do not know for certain what will happen. At the very least, though, I don't think all remaining three will die.
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I tried to let him know how much is left, and to try to have people talk a little more if they can. If we only have two weeks... five more people still need to die.
[Her grip tightens as her eyes fall to the floor.]
...I wish there was more I could do from here. That I could talk to the Realm. That... I could give up more of myself, like Goat-kun, if it meant I could help them all a little more.
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I know. I'm gonna do whatever I can, remember?
Goat-kun, if I asked you a favor, could... you try to do it, as best as you could? It's for Chijin.
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cries thank you goat mod i love you
If he ever comes and talks to you, until we can get our team together again... could you give him a flower from the forest, whenever you can remember, any day you can remember?
[Her hands sink in front of her, fingers clenching tight.] I think all of this is getting really hard for everyone to watch, but Chijin... he's gentle, just like you, and I... I'm really worried about both of you. I can still talk to Goat-kun, and still let you know I believe in you no matter what... but I want him to know I still believe in him, too, even if I can't pray like I want. Even if...
Even if he thinks he's just repeating something horrible. I think he needs to be reminded that he's loved, and that he isn't alone.
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Thank you.
I know he's really fond of you.
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I think... especially, some place like this, it's really good to know somebody understands you. I know you said you have memories you'd rather nobody see, and I think Chijin is the same.
So I'm really glad you both have each other, Goat-kun. I hope you both treasure that.
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I do. People's kindness is never something to take for granted.
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Chijin's been helping me to... mmm, well, not really change it, but to have a different view on it. He's lived a lot of life where I haven't .
It's why I'm glad I have friends like him, and like you. I know you'll tell me if you think my kindness is leading me down a path that's difficult, so I can make that choice as best I can.
I... know the next couple weeks are going to be really hard. But I hope you know you can always talk to us, just like we ask to talk to you, Goat-kun.
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Thank you. For seeing me a few days ago, and for... for letting me feel safe. I'm really, really sorry if I worried you.
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"People's kindness is never something to take for granted."
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darn it, he hates it when people use his own words against him! ]
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Somebody wise once told me that, anyway.
Not everyone is as kind as you. I think... it's good, to be reminded of what people appreciate about you.