Things are happening when I touch stuff, Goat-kun. Like things just... stop existing.
And I've been forgetting people. People here, that I... I've met them, right? And when I walked here, the buildings weren't looking... familiar anymore. Did we always have all these buildings, Goat-kun?
[The undercurrent of worry is very, very faint, sounding far more like a serious question than anything else.]
I... I know somebody from another team said that this... it will go away if somebody dies. I'm not gonna... I don't want to do anything like that. I can't. But...
[Her arms lift to cling to him for a moment.]
I don't... want anything to happen to you. To any of you.
[She's been starved of the touch, too scared to truly rest her hands on another. So even if it's in fear, in sorrow, in anger... she holds onto him, this man of power and mystery that she still barely knew, and she lets it be a comfort.]
...
No matter what, Goat-kun... keep believing in us. Even... even if the worst happens...
We're gonna fix this. We're gonna get everybody home. I'm gonna do whatever I can... no matter what happens to me...
[It's a compliment that warms her, that breaks through the fear she feels underneath the calm exterior that isn't quite her own, isn't quite herself. She wants to do more. She wants to keep doing more. But like this... if what she knew was right, then she was putting everyone here in danger if she fought her way to an answer. More people would splinter, more people would have to die...
...]
I don't want it to stop. Even if... even if all I can do is save one person...
I'm gonna try. I'm never gonna stop trying, even if I forget everything else.
I won't stop... Right? I won't...
[And her words halt as her eyes focus up at them, at the mask, at the feel of their hand on her head...
She... knows their name, right? This is her leader. She knows that much, still. So why...
...
She opens her mouth, closes it, her eyes growing heavy as the recognition crumbles.]
I won't stop... Taichou-sama. If I wake up tomorrow, I'll do whatever I can. And if... if I can't... then I'll find you. I'll find my way back to all of you.
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What do you mean?
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And I've been forgetting people. People here, that I... I've met them, right? And when I walked here, the buildings weren't looking... familiar anymore. Did we always have all these buildings, Goat-kun?
[The undercurrent of worry is very, very faint, sounding far more like a serious question than anything else.]
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That is... certainly not normal. You are correct.
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...Did I do something wrong?
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... No. Whatever it is, I'm sure you have not done wrong.
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...
Dianxia-sama was worried about me, I think. I told him I'd try to come talk to you, to see if there was anything I could do. I just, um...
I can't remember... why it came up.
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I... I know somebody from another team said that this... it will go away if somebody dies. I'm not gonna... I don't want to do anything like that. I can't. But...
[Her arms lift to cling to him for a moment.]
I don't... want anything to happen to you. To any of you.
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... I wish I had answers for you.
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...
No matter what, Goat-kun... keep believing in us. Even... even if the worst happens...
We're gonna fix this. We're gonna get everybody home. I'm gonna do whatever I can... no matter what happens to me...
I promise...
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[She'll loosen her grip, if only to look up at him, to where she wishes she could meet him eye to eye.]
Thank you. I'm... really, really glad you're my leader.
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That's all I wanted. I... I don't think I remember anymore. I don't know what I've really done to help, but...
[There's a laugh, almost nervous, almost a choke, as she presses a hand to her eyes. Her voice stays even, despite it.]
It... it makes me really happy, Goat-kun, if... someone special like you thinks I've done well...
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I am no one special. But what I say is the truth--your light has shone brightly here.
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[It's a compliment that warms her, that breaks through the fear she feels underneath the calm exterior that isn't quite her own, isn't quite herself. She wants to do more. She wants to keep doing more. But like this... if what she knew was right, then she was putting everyone here in danger if she fought her way to an answer. More people would splinter, more people would have to die...
...]
I don't want it to stop. Even if... even if all I can do is save one person...
I'm gonna try. I'm never gonna stop trying, even if I forget everything else.
I won't stop... Right? I won't...
[And her words halt as her eyes focus up at them, at the mask, at the feel of their hand on her head...
She... knows their name, right? This is her leader. She knows that much, still. So why...
...
She opens her mouth, closes it, her eyes growing heavy as the recognition crumbles.]
I won't stop... Taichou-sama. If I wake up tomorrow, I'll do whatever I can. And if... if I can't... then I'll find you. I'll find my way back to all of you.
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he smiles, gently. ]
Then, I will wait for you.