Even if it's your duty to answer questions, I hope you'll refrain from doing anything painful on my behalf.
[if this line of questioning makes them uncomfortable - soo-won isn't the type to stop from asking questions, but he'll understand that in something as personal as this, it's not necessary to advance his interests.
only quell his curiosity]
But what is it like - to live without your memories?
[ no painful things on soo-won's behalf. duly noted, soo-won. and also promptly thrown out of the window, probably. ]
... I don't know. Everything feels unfamiliar to me, but... um, it seems that may be how I always am. The other Leaders know so much, like what a "condom" is. Though none of them would explain to me what "knocking someone up" means...
I know it has to do with sex, since Tiger told me that you would all be having intercourse frequently here? I'm not sure if that's a good priority to have, but I suppose we cannot stop you.
soo-won can't help but find it a bit ironic - for his leader to be distinctly non-human this way. yesterday he got to speak at length with a priest, and today he is meant to follow after someone who is not human. this place has a sense of humor.]
... but that's true. The things I've heard about - the train station, the elevator, the electronic device... they're quite good inventions.
Do you feel any regret after meeting us? Knowing the types of people that you relinquished your memories for.
I don't know about myself... but I think everyone is very kind.
[ they look up to the sky--and, actually, dana, where is their walk taking them. ]
... You asked what it's like to live without my memories. Just as the currents in the ocean move in the same pattern, even if they carry no memory of where they are heading, and rarely do they shift drastically--
Although I cannot see where I have come from and where I will go, I know which direction I wish to take my steps, in this moment. I don't know who I am, and yet I still do. [ a pause. ] Though, perhaps, that's my luxury as the eldest. The others may not feel the same way.
[through town and then probably out to the forest? they are going to amble forever or until they're done talking,,
that said soo-won listens, deeply interested]
How do you know that you're the eldest, if you cannot recall your life?
[just wondering
.... as for the rest of it - ]
... I like the sound of that. I've been wondering about that, with a few others. What parts of myself can I afford to lose, until I can no longer be the same person? If I lose my love for the people, what will remain? I've thought for a while about if there's anything I'd be alright with losing... and ultimately, the answer is no. Good and bad, perhaps it is my immaturity showing, but I would like to keep it all.
Yet I know I cannot, so I am trying to prepare for what may happen.
If you're my Leader, will you help make sure I don't go astray?
We can recall some details about ourselves, like our ages and whether or not we're human, but that's it.
[ your mods thought of this when people were like SHIP WITH THE NPCS ]
I think that even if you forget the specific people or group that you formed that love around, the part that created said love will remain. [ though that's just goat's opinion. ] Of course. I will do all I can to help.
Eh? Then may I ask - how old are you? Are you human?
[IS GOAT HUMAN
that said... hmmm, soo-won wonders if that's true! he supposes the worst case scenario is that he'll have to find out, but for now he nods.]
Fufu, I appreciate it. I can't say I remember the last time I agreed to follow someone else [in a serious way, that wasn't just letting lili thinks she was his boss. also he didn't agree to this but it's ok, he'll roll with it] so I hope that you'll be patient with me.
[ they lift their hand, as the bird takes off. though in general, soo-won might notice that the woodland creatures--even the more skittish ones--seem accepting of goat's presence. ]
You may also simply think of me as nothing at all.
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I don't recall exactly... I know it was willing, but I don't remember the process.
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Even if it's your duty to answer questions, I hope you'll refrain from doing anything painful on my behalf.
[if this line of questioning makes them uncomfortable - soo-won isn't the type to stop from asking questions, but he'll understand that in something as personal as this, it's not necessary to advance his interests.
only quell his curiosity]
But what is it like - to live without your memories?
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... I don't know. Everything feels unfamiliar to me, but... um, it seems that may be how I always am. The other Leaders know so much, like what a "condom" is. Though none of them would explain to me what "knocking someone up" means...
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yea he's turning red]
I-It's rather lewd, so perhaps that's for the best.
[NOOOOOOOOO GOAT]
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[ i'm sorry soo-won ]
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[HE DOESN'T KNOW WHERE TO START HERE]
No no no no no no no no no no [too many no's, soo-won], that's not a priority of mine in the slightest.
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[aaaaaaaaa]
Ah - um, so you mean to say that you’re not very familiar with er - modern things? Or - human acts?
Even if your memories were taken, it seems like the others have working knowledge of general concepts they know...
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[ and then they ruined wolf, fox, and rabbit's lives that day. it's fine. ]
The world is always moving forward with new things. Even if I don't remember exactly, that much I know.
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[but poor rabbit....
soo-won can't help but find it a bit ironic - for his leader to be distinctly non-human this way. yesterday he got to speak at length with a priest, and today he is meant to follow after someone who is not human. this place has a sense of humor.]
... but that's true. The things I've heard about - the train station, the elevator, the electronic device... they're quite good inventions.
Do you feel any regret after meeting us? Knowing the types of people that you relinquished your memories for.
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but without hesitation-- ]
No. Others may feel differently, but the sacrifices I make should not depend on my personal feelings about the person.
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. . . though that at least is a sentiment that soo-won can understand]
... I look forward to meeting you properly, when all your memories are returned. I think I'd want to hear more about your perspective.
I think that you must all be very gracious people - to let go of pieces of yourselves for us.
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[ they look up to the sky--and, actually, dana, where is their walk taking them. ]
... You asked what it's like to live without my memories. Just as the currents in the ocean move in the same pattern, even if they carry no memory of where they are heading, and rarely do they shift drastically--
Although I cannot see where I have come from and where I will go, I know which direction I wish to take my steps, in this moment. I don't know who I am, and yet I still do. [ a pause. ] Though, perhaps, that's my luxury as the eldest. The others may not feel the same way.
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that said soo-won listens, deeply interested]
How do you know that you're the eldest, if you cannot recall your life?
[just wondering
.... as for the rest of it - ]
... I like the sound of that. I've been wondering about that, with a few others. What parts of myself can I afford to lose, until I can no longer be the same person? If I lose my love for the people, what will remain? I've thought for a while about if there's anything I'd be alright with losing... and ultimately, the answer is no. Good and bad, perhaps it is my immaturity showing, but I would like to keep it all.
Yet I know I cannot, so I am trying to prepare for what may happen.
If you're my Leader, will you help make sure I don't go astray?
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[ your mods thought of this when people were like SHIP WITH THE NPCS ]
I think that even if you forget the specific people or group that you formed that love around, the part that created said love will remain. [ though that's just goat's opinion. ] Of course. I will do all I can to help.
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Eh? Then may I ask - how old are you? Are you human?
[IS GOAT HUMAN
that said... hmmm, soo-won wonders if that's true! he supposes the worst case scenario is that he'll have to find out, but for now he nods.]
Fufu, I appreciate it. I can't say I remember the last time I agreed to follow someone else [in a serious way, that wasn't just letting lili thinks she was his boss. also he didn't agree to this but it's ok, he'll roll with it] so I hope that you'll be patient with me.
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[ despite just saying that they remember their ages. whoops. ]
You don't have to think of it as following me. I don't believe I'm suited to do anything like leading, to begin with.
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Ah - you don't remember in the sense that you've been alive for so long the years aren't worth counting?
[is his next guess]
Hm... What do you believe you're suited to do?
[even if they don't have their memories, what do they feel pulled to do?]
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and then
they fall silent.
...
they seem to be thinking very hard, though? ]
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in the meantime, as they and soo-won grow closer to where there's nature, they hold out a hand and a wild bird comes down to perch on it. ]
... I don't know if I have any particular talents... [ maybe they are just a useless goat. ): ] But if I can, I would like to protect others.
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that said, soo-won will glance over at that and offer up a smile]
I think that's a wonderful desire - even if it's not yet bloomed into a talent.
So you're more akin to my Guardian than my Leader?
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If you would like to think of it as that.
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[but it's somewhat simpler to grasp?]
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[ they lift their hand, as the bird takes off. though in general, soo-won might notice that the woodland creatures--even the more skittish ones--seem accepting of goat's presence. ]
You may also simply think of me as nothing at all.
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JAN PLEASE SLEEP
i should never have confirmed my identity ):
i love you but sneepytime
:pensive:
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