So it would seem. I didn't anticipate a future in which I would work so closely with gods, but between the both of you, I'd say it's a pleasant surprise.
....
Did you remember more, Goat? Perhaps - twice over this week?
[ he opens a portal, and if soo-won follows, it takes them to goat's room in the castle. still empty, besides the coffin, though it seems goat's now using it for storage. if soo-won peers in, it has the summoning circle drawings, various items that are probably gifts from participants, and a photo of someone who looks like goat alongside a smiling child. ]
but soo-won will naturally follow after and.... well, he's a little tired. so he's just going to move to sit on the floor where there's less stuff with a bit of a - ]
... I don't know. My regained memories extend to only about a month after I returned, but I have reason to think that even those aren't necessarily recent.
Though at least in terms of eras, and in regards to advancements in human society and technology... the world to which I awakened seems to align with what I'm familiar with here, if barely.
[ he takes out his sword, holding it in front of his face as he looks it over. ]
I wondered, before, why I had this sword, when I didn't have it in my memories. I descended to help that child, not to harm anyone... so I had no reason to wield a weapon.
... When I brought him back from death, I imparted some of my power unto him. In doing so, he became something inhuman.
As it turns out, though... he could then do the same as well. By sharing his vapour—that which was originally mine—he turned other people into the same, if weaker the more removed they were from the source. By the time I awakened, people were referring to such beings as "Demans". Demons who were once human, I suppose.
[ ... ]
It is little wonder. With my power, the Demans can live eternal lives—but only by stealing the lifespan of other humans. The society I witnessed was one where they were encouraged to view humans as lesser beings, so they had no remorse over killing them and devouring their souls.
[ so goat accidentally fucked up humanity and created the demon race, which ranks somewhere on the list of Top 10 Worst Things To Wake Up To. ]
move to shift then, pushing himself up off the floor and - he doesn't assume he can sit next to goat on the coffin, but he will just move to sit on the ground next to him.
and reach to put a hand over his.]
.... which is certainly the opposite of all that you ever hoped to impart.
[ for a moment, goat almost sees another scene—of him sitting on this coffin, and of a young man asking for his power, and then trying to demand it by force when he wouldn't give it.
... but soo-won is not here to ask anything of him, and the notion is almost disarming. ]
... He'd always hated that I didn't do more with my power, when I could rule by force if I so wished. However, I never had any desire to interfere with humanity's freedom in such a way.
And... perhaps he resented me for other reasons as well. I know now that I was not a good teacher to him. He is right to blame me for that.
[ ... ]
In the end, after finding a way to steal more from me, he threw me away. I was no longer needed in his world.
[ more specifically he publicly humiliated him and then threw him off a cliff but maybe details aren't necessary. ]
[ . . . for a moment, there is a little bit of tension in soo-won's hand at the idea of goat being thrown away.
soo-won perhaps is not allowed to criticize. when he killed il, in the same breath he threw away hak and yona because they could not continue to live in the kingdom that they had turned blind eyes to for so long. it is not as though he is a stranger to the notion of abandoning those you had claimed to love.
but it feels different.
to do so without remorse, to abandon goat because he was no longer 'needed' in a world that acts so cruelly and treats others without dignity....
he tries to understand - but he still yet struggles.]
Even if you may not have been a good teacher.... You deserve more than what you were given.
I'm sorry, my friend.
You are more than the 'use' others might think you can offer them.
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So it would seem. I didn't anticipate a future in which I would work so closely with gods, but between the both of you, I'd say it's a pleasant surprise.
....
Did you remember more, Goat? Perhaps - twice over this week?
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[ ...
he falls silent. ]
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Share it with me?
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Haven't you had enough of unhappy stories?
[ goat may or may not have been lying when he said he was fine because he's in a terrible mood actually, but it's fine. ]
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but at least he doesn't seem to mind the lie this time.]
Whether it's happy or sad....
It is because it is your story, that I want to hear it.
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[ he opens a portal, and if soo-won follows, it takes them to goat's room in the castle. still empty, besides the coffin, though it seems goat's now using it for storage. if soo-won peers in, it has the summoning circle drawings, various items that are probably gifts from participants, and a photo of someone who looks like goat alongside a smiling child. ]
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but soo-won will naturally follow after and.... well, he's a little tired. so he's just going to move to sit on the floor where there's less stuff with a bit of a - ]
Pardon me....
[him tired and poisoned]
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This--or rather, the original thing, from which this was likely based--is what Ares buried me in, when I died.
... Though it may be more accurate to say that I fell into a deep sleep. One I didn't awaken from, until a thousand years later.
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.... when did you awaken? Recently?
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... I don't know. My regained memories extend to only about a month after I returned, but I have reason to think that even those aren't necessarily recent.
Though at least in terms of eras, and in regards to advancements in human society and technology... the world to which I awakened seems to align with what I'm familiar with here, if barely.
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How are you feeling?
Handling that information.
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The world is always changing. Even before then, I had spent hundreds of years away from human society in exile, so it is nothing I'm not used to.
[ that's pretty much the least worst part of his memories. ]
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.... then why is it that it feels as though something is weighing on you today?
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... Because the world wasn't the only thing that changed.
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Or the people in it?
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[ he takes out his sword, holding it in front of his face as he looks it over. ]
I wondered, before, why I had this sword, when I didn't have it in my memories. I descended to help that child, not to harm anyone... so I had no reason to wield a weapon.
And now, I know why.
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Did you become displeased with humanity?
Or they with you?
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Neither, exactly...
Though I am certainly the one at fault.
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What happened?
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[ a sad, broken smile. ]
Back then, I did not realize just how true those words were--how much worse things could get.
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goat your
yanbaby].... did he do something, while you were asleep?
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As it turns out, though... he could then do the same as well. By sharing his vapour—that which was originally mine—he turned other people into the same, if weaker the more removed they were from the source. By the time I awakened, people were referring to such beings as "Demans". Demons who were once human, I suppose.
[ ... ]
It is little wonder. With my power, the Demans can live eternal lives—but only by stealing the lifespan of other humans. The society I witnessed was one where they were encouraged to view humans as lesser beings, so they had no remorse over killing them and devouring their souls.
[ so goat accidentally fucked up humanity and created the demon race, which ranks somewhere on the list of Top 10 Worst Things To Wake Up To. ]
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move to shift then, pushing himself up off the floor and - he doesn't assume he can sit next to goat on the coffin, but he will just move to sit on the ground next to him.
and reach to put a hand over his.]
.... which is certainly the opposite of all that you ever hoped to impart.
[to treasure every single life]
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... but soo-won is not here to ask anything of him, and the notion is almost disarming. ]
... He'd always hated that I didn't do more with my power, when I could rule by force if I so wished. However, I never had any desire to interfere with humanity's freedom in such a way.
And... perhaps he resented me for other reasons as well. I know now that I was not a good teacher to him. He is right to blame me for that.
[ ... ]
In the end, after finding a way to steal more from me, he threw me away. I was no longer needed in his world.
[ more specifically he publicly humiliated him and then threw him off a cliff but maybe details aren't necessary. ]
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soo-won perhaps is not allowed to criticize. when he killed il, in the same breath he threw away hak and yona because they could not continue to live in the kingdom that they had turned blind eyes to for so long. it is not as though he is a stranger to the notion of abandoning those you had claimed to love.
but it feels different.
to do so without remorse, to abandon goat because he was no longer 'needed' in a world that acts so cruelly and treats others without dignity....
he tries to understand - but he still yet struggles.]
Even if you may not have been a good teacher.... You deserve more than what you were given.
I'm sorry, my friend.
You are more than the 'use' others might think you can offer them.
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