Precisely so - but at least if everyone I spoke to is willing to be honest, we'll be able to verify some truths for each team.
It's not a terrible position to be as a starting place... and my hope is that Sharon might still be able to act on her own wherever she is, so long as her soul exists.
[ STOP GOAT JUST LETS PEOPLE DO WHATEVER THEY WANT WITH HIM soo-won could punch him right now and he would be confused but also just go "well i guess that's what soo-won wants to do." ]
[WELL GOAT ISN'T PULLING AWAY SO IN THE END THEY'RE GOING TO BE LEFT HERE FOREVER, JAN]
... she told me what she lost, and why it mattered to her more than anything to try to get it back. I told her why I couldn't die, because I have a nation that is relying on me. So I can't afford to meet my end here.
Though I told her that I didn't believe that the 'removed' were completely out of consideration - you hesitated to tell me before, in a way that didn't result in consequences, and perhaps I believed too much in the idea that there was more you couldn't say. [but it worked out? sort of?] So I told her that even if one of us were to be removed, they would have to work in accordance with the will of the victor.
Because ultimately we didn't have a problem with each other - it was only with the Realm for making us participate in this sort of business.
[ultimately pragmatic and soo-won's tendency to try to get whatever leverage he can in most situations]
... It sounds like she believed in you. [ ... ] I am glad, at least, that there were no hard feelings between the two of you. Death is enough of a burden to carry, even without hatred.
[ . . . . . there's a bit of a huff at that, gentle, distantly amused, and a bit rueful.]
... well, I know what I've done. To take a life remains to be something difficult, even if it was a situation where I didn't have a choice but to do so.
But I can carry one more person's belief.
Given that the nova generated for our team was likely hers.... I don't mind carrying her wish along with me as well. It's the least that I could do.
.... it depends, I suppose. It makes me wonder what Rabbit and Wolf's teams are doing, exactly, that manage to make them catch so much of a lead.
Do you have any new clarification about what causes nova to gather? Strong emotions, like that after trial, participating in the oddities on Wednesday, and harming another person?
We still don't always know exactly... but your bonds with one another--and perhaps with us, the Leaders--may be one source. What you went through on Thursday, another.
Wednesdays and the conclusion of trials have been the most consistent. Though in regards to the latter, less nova was gathered last week than the first, because of, um, the results...
it takes him a moment to ask - but he has to. he truly feels as though he has to, even though he keeps his expression level.]
.... if they voted for me in a later week, even if I hadn't harmed someone that given night, how would that ultimately affect the nova? Would it gather more because I had been guilty at some point?
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Perhaps this is why people keep suspecting you of being more than a merchant.
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You have an air of authority about you. [ a beat. ] Though I suppose I wouldn't know much about merchants or kings.
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Not yet anyway - perhaps you came across them in the other memories you don't have.
But if I do have any authority, I hope that it's wielded well. I'm not used to such a... chaotic group.
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as fondly as he can]
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Everyone is very interesting.
[ are they still hugging, are they ever getting up from the ground. ]
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They are.
And for the most part, it does seem that everyone's intentions are good. So that's sweet.
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... Yes. It is a relief to see, especially with all the suffering.
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Mm. Though I'd like to end the suffering too...
[ . . . ]
But we need more information first, before we can determine how to act. Two weeks is not yet enough to determine whether anything is truly a pattern.
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... Mm. There are things that could be unfortunate coincidences...
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Precisely so - but at least if everyone I spoke to is willing to be honest, we'll be able to verify some truths for each team.
It's not a terrible position to be as a starting place... and my hope is that Sharon might still be able to act on her own wherever she is, so long as her soul exists.
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We will see. I was being truthful when I said that you shouldn't expect anything from those who have passed, to my knowledge.
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I'll choose to believe that - but perhaps it's a matter of regaining memories?
[he's not sure]
At the very least, she knows what the goal is and seemed capable enough, so I don't mind relying on her.
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What exactly did you two discuss that night...?
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... she told me what she lost, and why it mattered to her more than anything to try to get it back. I told her why I couldn't die, because I have a nation that is relying on me. So I can't afford to meet my end here.
Though I told her that I didn't believe that the 'removed' were completely out of consideration - you hesitated to tell me before, in a way that didn't result in consequences, and perhaps I believed too much in the idea that there was more you couldn't say. [but it worked out? sort of?] So I told her that even if one of us were to be removed, they would have to work in accordance with the will of the victor.
Because ultimately we didn't have a problem with each other - it was only with the Realm for making us participate in this sort of business.
[ultimately pragmatic and soo-won's tendency to try to get whatever leverage he can in most situations]
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... I see. Then, I hope that that child's soul found some peace with that resolve.
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... I don't know. I'd like to ask her, but it sounds like I won't be able to.
Even still - I know that she told me... that she wants me to live.
[with her last breath]
So I don't intend to go easily, else it end up being a fruitless endeavor for both of us.
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... It sounds like she believed in you. [ ... ] I am glad, at least, that there were no hard feelings between the two of you. Death is enough of a burden to carry, even without hatred.
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... well, I know what I've done. To take a life remains to be something difficult, even if it was a situation where I didn't have a choice but to do so.
But I can carry one more person's belief.
Given that the nova generated for our team was likely hers.... I don't mind carrying her wish along with me as well. It's the least that I could do.
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... If her death contributed to our nova, I don't believe it was as much as you suspect. Much of it was gained from different times in the week.
Though I don't know if that makes it better or worse...
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he hums thoughtfully at that]
.... it depends, I suppose. It makes me wonder what Rabbit and Wolf's teams are doing, exactly, that manage to make them catch so much of a lead.
Do you have any new clarification about what causes nova to gather? Strong emotions, like that after trial, participating in the oddities on Wednesday, and harming another person?
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We still don't always know exactly... but your bonds with one another--and perhaps with us, the Leaders--may be one source. What you went through on Thursday, another.
Wednesdays and the conclusion of trials have been the most consistent. Though in regards to the latter, less nova was gathered last week than the first, because of, um, the results...
[ y'all voted for an innocent ]
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it takes him a moment to ask - but he has to. he truly feels as though he has to, even though he keeps his expression level.]
.... if they voted for me in a later week, even if I hadn't harmed someone that given night, how would that ultimately affect the nova? Would it gather more because I had been guilty at some point?
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Um...
I don't quite know how the "system" works [ please don't ask this of the least tech-savvy npc ] but I don't think so...
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I'll look into it then.
[but - ]
Though I don't have much interest in dying, so it'd likely only be as an absolutely necessity.
[like if it's the last bit of nova they need to get home or something - but that's only if it actually ends up working]
So if we get it wrong, it generates less nova....
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I believe the "system" no longer... recalls that you took a life? So it would be equal to voting for anyone else.
But that is correct.
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