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TL;CR MEME
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.
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“I know I’m going to love you without questions, I know I’m going to love you without the answers."
AKA: I literally didn't even believe or think I would be in another ship with Teej and I'm just. Laying down on the floor right now.
Anyways, from the beginning, Emet-Selch was someone that Hansa liked talking to. His profile piqued his interest, what with the age and the interests and just, everything weird about it, so he was eager to see what kind of man was behind it. He wasn't disappointed. Their first talk got right into religion which was really interesting because Hansa is a very atypical representation of what a Catholic priest is all supposed to be about. One one hand, he is very devoted to the Lord, and has deep respect for the upper echelons of the Church, and overall sees God as a power to behold - in canon, he even gets angry at another character who tries to give him a compliment about him being a part of the Burial Agency, which Hansa sees as an insult because he says he is nowhere near the level of those who can wield God's very power. On the other hand, Hansa is one who sees himself as someone who "wields the power of man" and his down-to-earth nature with that seems to lead into his more carefree attitude towards others and their takes on the nature of what "God" means. So when Emet brought up that his god was unlike the one Hansa followed, he barely took offense. He already thought that this was a place where people came from different worlds, and perhaps the Lord had different forms in all of them.
They really vibed well from the start just like we had guessed they would pre-game - Emet's pettiness and snide commentary was like music to Hansa's ears, and he honestly liked that Emet-Selch was a levelheaded individual that could also step back and look at the big picture as a whole. It intrigued him to try to think of how Emet thought of everything as an immortal - which leads to one of the things that I think makes this relationship the thing it is - the fact that Hansa sees himself as a mortal who lives day by day, enjoying what life brings, and Emet is a man who has lived for literal thousands of years and has grown weary of it all. Hansa knew he would never fully understand that viewpoint, and in its own way it was amusing, but it was humbling too, to know that this man was someone who saw him as a being who would vanish in the blink of an eye. Then learning about Emet's culture, and how it emphasized the community (and him hilariously being like OH...SO WORKER ANTS? MONKS?) was even more eye-opening, since Hansa knows how people where he comes from are all about the individual. Hansa liked Emet, and saw him as fun to talk to, and was amused to eventually find out that they were on the same team and liked Tiger for everything she was about.
And then that ten year CYOA....changed everything.
Hansa was reluctant at first for the task, but Kaiza, their eventual son, was endearing to Hansa immediately. Where Emet-Selch grouched, Hansa stepped forward with a hand and a smile, and their differing parenting tactics really somehow melded together into a sort of partnership that worked. And during those ten years, though it really was just a task, Hansa started seeing himself as Kaiza's father, and him seeing the way that Emet looked out for Kaiza in his own way was surprising yet...endearing. Here was an immortal who had professed to Hansa that he was tired and he had lived for eons and stepping back from it all was only logical, but then here in these ten years he took time to help with Kaiza's studies, and made a case for him at their parent meeting at school, and went forward to defend him when he was in danger, and it offered a new perspective on Emet for Hansa. Despite everything...Emet-Selch cared about their son. Hansa, despite his chaotic nature, is a man who has a good heart and values people who do good things, and to see this softer (yet still grouchy) side of Emet was the start of feelings that he sort of just gathered as they went along. (Also Emet's grumpiness at being teased is just. Icing at the cake.)
And then the unthinkable happened. Here was the truth that was revealed: that their son had always been dead, and this was a timeline where he had been resurrected for a single task, which when completed, would result in the death of the timeline and the literal erasure of his entire existence. He would be forgotten, completely. This was...like shooting Hansa through the heart. I say time and time again how he is a very mentally stable person, but at the same time, mentally stable doesn't protect him from feeling sorrow, or being upset, or experiencing sudden, violent grief. And before he could really react, Emet stepped forward to do the unthinkable - try to kill HIS OWN SON so that at least, he'd be remembered, even dead. It was a horrible thing. Hansa could hardly believe it, but in the middle of his grief, part of him understood Emet's reasoning which just made it hurt all the more. He couldn't let Emet go through with it, though, because either way, Kaiza would be dead, and it was horrid to even think of a parent killing his own child even for that - but in a strange way, that act just proved that Emet cared, and cared deeply, and when all was said and done and they were left to basically carry ten years of memories of a young man who no longer existed in any sense, Hansa instantly found himself running for Emet's company for shared solace in their loss. The last time Hansa lost someone, it was his entire family in a night, and he had no one to turn to, so having Emet there was something that Hansa desperately needed in this incredibly emotionally vulnerable time.
And then, it all happened, like a railroad rushing down a track without brakes. Hansa only had a day or so to grieve before another trial was on them, and then, suddenly, Emet made a blatant lie in trial and basically looked to him to cover him for it. Hansa was incredibly mad deep down - not because Emet murdered, but because he didn't discuss it in advance - and when his lie failed, and Emet was chosen and confessed, Hansa was despondent beyond reason. They had just lost their son. And what, he was going to lose Emet, too? It was like another dagger to his heart. He hates that Chiron basically threw himself on the blade to save Emet, too, which surprises him too since he didn't expect it - although he dislikes Chiron trying to sacrifice himself, he was grateful in his own way to the centaur. and tells him as much. And then Chiron basically just bluntly asks Hansa if he's in love with Emet. This completely takes him aback, and really...gets him to step back and look at his own feelings. Oh, for sure he cares for Emet, but...is it really love? He doesn't know. All he knows is that the centaur loves Emet too, and then Soo-won goes and tells him that things will be okay at the execution. He latches onto that, desperate for the idea that he won't lose the man, and when the time comes, Hansa, not 100% sure it will turn out okay (and unwilling to tell Emet in fear it may botch his chance) tells the man what he feels. And then he survives! And Hansa, who would've likely had a terrible downward spiral if he had died for real, is elated beyond measure.
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Except...Emet suddenly calls him and Chiron in for a meeting to explain their feelings, Hansa does so, and then throws down his ultimatum that he would never leave Alex and that was that. He expected for Emet to just say "okay lol I'll be with Chiron and you be with Alex"....except suddenly the two were like "yeah that's fine, we want you, bring Alex in". This FLOORED Hansa. Here he had been thinking things would go one way, and here was confirmation that Emet cared? For HIM? And Chiron was fine with them all being together? Its still sort of a shock to this day - Hansa definitely doesn't take anything Emet gives him for granted, and any sign of affection is one more than he thought he'd ever get from the immortal.
Its then funny because they get love arrowed, and after a smooch and a sudden memshare he sees that...Emet is basically [REDACTED] in his canon. Hansa is furious, of course he is, but seeing the ending, where Emet [REDACTED]...actually softened that anger. Hansa operates on a philosophy that even if you're a bad person, or a terrible being, as long as you accept what you are, live quietly, and do good things despite things you have done or were planning to do in the past...he was fine with that. And seeing that Emet didn't have those feelings he saw anymore really reassured him that being fond of Emet wasn't a mistake, and honestly he felt more for Emet after that. Hansa, your terrible taste. (To be fair, if Emet went back on THAT level of bullshit, Hansa's morality is strong enough that he would actually fight the man, because love or no love, he can't abide by that.)
ANYWAYS, as of right now Hansa will probably be clueless of HOW MUCH OF AN ASSHOLE EMET WAS FOR THE ENTIRE GAME HOLY COW but I think right now, he's terribly happy where he is. Its hard to describe what his feelings for Emet really are - it is love, in a sense, but its mixed with this kind of earnest devotion, and just happiness to be at the man's side. He just finds it special that Emet cares for him back in his own way. Right now, Hansa sees himself as like...someone that Emet can be happy to witness. Sure, their viewpoints as mortal and immortal won't really coincide, but if Emet can live vicariously through him, understand some of the joy he has every day as a human being who is happy with life itself, then Hansa would be overjoyed himself. If Emet turned away and grew tired of the relationship, then that would be fine. Its his right to do so. But Hansa treasures the fact that he decided to stay by his side, and he feels more happy that he can be one of a tiny few who has received his attention.
Sometimes, that's all that matters.
(also, after several weeks of deliberating it, Hansa can conclude that Emet's other form is indeed Hot)