the point made earlier - that soo-won was able to avoid looking shocked or dismayed? it's gone immediately when he hears that name. his eyes widen and it seems like the air has been punched out of his lungs.
still, perhaps irrationally, he couldn't help but desire even the smallest room for doubt - because there's always something about yona that makes him so painfully irrational.]
... It is not too late to decline. I can ask this of Xie Lian instead, if you cannot bring yourself to. [ after a moment-- ] Though I suspect that you would prefer to handle it yourself.
No, you're right. I would rather handle this matter myself, rather than leave it to Xie Lian. He's fond of Yona himself, after all. Someone would be hurt regardless.
[and they've talked about it - why xie lian can't be put in a position where he might be pursued. not when he has so much to offer the people here.]
soo-won thinks about asking for details, for seeking additional information - but the truth is, he doesn't really need to. not when he knows that hilda can almost tell him more than goat can, given her personal experience. there's no need to ask for ways to make this easier, or what might need to be done, because he will complete the task for the sake of everyone here.
so instead he just lets his head bow, resting on goat's shoulder for just a moment.
he has to start making preparations after this - but at least for just a moment, he can crack.
[when the embrace comes, soo-won just lets his face nestle further against goat - because it'll hopefully mask the way that his heart feels like it's aching. already, he feels the sense that a headache might be approaching but....
well, when it rains, it pours, no? he breathes in, and out, before trying to center himself again and standing.]
.... the others will be able to be revived, with this. I know you still have your apprehensions but...
I won't fail.
[and at least this way, they won't spill more blood than they have to. a self-defense kill, and a kill to deal with splintering nova.]
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the point made earlier - that soo-won was able to avoid looking shocked or dismayed? it's gone immediately when he hears that name. his eyes widen and it seems like the air has been punched out of his lungs.
yona?]
.... are you certain?
[he was so sure of himself - up to this point.]
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[ ... ]
I wouldn't be asking this of anyone if I wasn't certain. I'm sorry.
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still, perhaps irrationally, he couldn't help but desire even the smallest room for doubt - because there's always something about yona that makes him so painfully irrational.]
.... mm.
I understand.
Thursday night, correct?
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... It is not too late to decline. I can ask this of Xie Lian instead, if you cannot bring yourself to. [ after a moment-- ] Though I suspect that you would prefer to handle it yourself.
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No, you're right. I would rather handle this matter myself, rather than leave it to Xie Lian. He's fond of Yona himself, after all. Someone would be hurt regardless.
[and they've talked about it - why xie lian can't be put in a position where he might be pursued. not when he has so much to offer the people here.]
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[ ...
silently, he reaches to take soo-won's hand, if he'll let him. ]
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he might hold on just a little bit more tightly than usual.]
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[ he squeezes his hand, to let him know that he's here, but he says nothing.
this isn't the kind of situation where words can help, after all. ]
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soo-won thinks about asking for details, for seeking additional information - but the truth is, he doesn't really need to. not when he knows that hilda can almost tell him more than goat can, given her personal experience. there's no need to ask for ways to make this easier, or what might need to be done, because he will complete the task for the sake of everyone here.
so instead he just lets his head bow, resting on goat's shoulder for just a moment.
he has to start making preparations after this - but at least for just a moment, he can crack.
just a little.]
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[ ...
he raises his other arm to embrace soo-won, gently. as always, there is so little he can do, and so this is all he can offer. ]
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well, when it rains, it pours, no? he breathes in, and out, before trying to center himself again and standing.]
.... the others will be able to be revived, with this. I know you still have your apprehensions but...
I won't fail.
[and at least this way, they won't spill more blood than they have to. a self-defense kill, and a kill to deal with splintering nova.]
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I believe in you.
[ though failure can take multiple forms, and goat is fairly certain that he himself has already done so. ]
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... then I couldn't bear to disappoint you.
[when goat believes in him]
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[ simply, ]
You have never disappointed me, Soo-won.