[ . . . . he just huffs out a short, gently amused breath at that. the sound almost comes off as fond.]
.... I've become intimately familiar with the brevity of my life here, Goat.
I'm alright. It's nothing I found unexpected.
All humans will die one day, and while I am not in any particular rush.... as long as my goals are completed, I will accept the end of my life as expected penance for all I've done.
[ it's something that goat both can and can't understand. even with most of his memories missing, he has lived an unfathomably long life, and knowing now that he likely didn't die then, it seems without end.
... but even with all the years he's had with his child, it never feels like enough, knowing that that boy is still doomed to leave him first. ]
... The time humans have is very short. And yet, that is why each of your lives shines brightly.
[soo-won doesn't disagree - and he would have no issues if he was given even a normal human's lifespan, honestly. if he could live and die the same as others - but he can't. because this is what the gods have left with his family with.
nothing but a curse.
even still....]
.... mm, that's right.
So it's why I have to enjoy the moments I can.
[even if he cannot help but sound - slightly unfulfilled. there is something wanting in his tone - for a life like goat's. where he can live as long as he wants, with a body that heals quickly so he might never die.
[ it would be a lie to say that goat can do nothing for soo-won. there is--but it's a mistake he vowed never to make again, and soo-won would never want to pay the price for it regardless. and so, the thought doesn't even cross goat's mind.
all he can do now is squeeze soo-won's hands, as there are no words left he can say. ]
[ you kept tagging me back at work so i couldn't prep anything :pensive: ]
Mm.
[ but before he can say anything more, another bubble drifts and pops or something ig.
in it is a memory... or rather, what feels like a memory within a memory.
You know this is not yours; you are only an observer. You watch from the sky, where down below a man weeps over another's prone body, as a woman next to you speaks.
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Are you all right?
[ not in the long run, he means. right now, that is. ]
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soo-won looks thoughtful at that.]
... I'm probably due for another attack soon. It's been remarkably consistent since the first weekend.
[once a week, after his life has been threatened incessantly, but.]
... though for now, yes, I'm fine.
[nothing hurts.]
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I mean emotionally.
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Should I feel something?
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... Never mind, then.
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.... I've become intimately familiar with the brevity of my life here, Goat.
I'm alright. It's nothing I found unexpected.
All humans will die one day, and while I am not in any particular rush.... as long as my goals are completed, I will accept the end of my life as expected penance for all I've done.
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[ even if his own words were a cold comfort when it mattered. ]
... Still, you seem uncomfortable.
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I don't entertain it for very long, because I don't know how to accomplish it -
.... but sometimes I think - it sounds nice.
To have more time.
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... but even with all the years he's had with his child, it never feels like enough, knowing that that boy is still doomed to leave him first. ]
... The time humans have is very short. And yet, that is why each of your lives shines brightly.
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nothing but a curse.
even still....]
.... mm, that's right.
So it's why I have to enjoy the moments I can.
[even if he cannot help but sound - slightly unfulfilled. there is something wanting in his tone - for a life like goat's. where he can live as long as he wants, with a body that heals quickly so he might never die.
isn't that something?]
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all he can do now is squeeze soo-won's hands, as there are no words left he can say. ]
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he squeezes back]
I didn't mean to dampen the conversation - it really isn't anything to be too concerned over.
My only hope is that my time here did not pull away too much from the time I need back in my country.
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[ soo-won really does not want the only kind of immortality goat can give ]
I don't know. Hopefully, then.
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.... well, we'll see. Maybe I'll look into some more medicines before I go back.
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Mm.
[ but before he can say anything more, another bubble drifts and pops or something ig.
in it is a memory... or rather, what feels like a memory within a memory.
You know this is not yours; you are only an observer. You watch from the sky, where down below a man weeps over another's prone body, as a woman next to you speaks.
"It'll start soon." ]