[ . . . . there's just a bit of a sigh at that before he pauses their walk so that he can look at goat more directly]
... I'm relieved.
But I also wanted to thank you, for sharing your sorrow with me. I know why you think that these are mistakes.... but I do think that your heart meant no harm when you did them.
So I hope that in the future, you'll continue to share the missing pieces with me as they come back.
... I do not regret descending to save that child. He was innocent back then, and shouldn't be judged for the deeds of his future self. However, to revive him and tear apart the natural order of the world, all for my own selfishness--that is an unforgivable act.
... he must've meant a lot to you, if you went so far to revive him, though. To think that you were in so much pain that you didn't want to consider a world without him.
[ . . . . he doesn't seem like he understands. at least, not on the surface. he's quiet for a long moment, trying to see one person as your entire world but perhaps... he can vaguely understand the sentiment.
to have important people that you wanted to keep with you no matter what - and perhaps soo-won could never make the choice that goat did.
but he also can't say that he wouldn't be tempted.]
.... do you ever think about letting your world get a little bigger than that?
It is difficult to say. After all, my most recent memory, chronologically, is promising to spend the rest of that child's life by his side, before my friend drove her spear through my chest.
I don't know if that is what I'll return to, once we're done here in the Realm, or if my life continues long past that point. If I'm not dead, then I must keep my promise to him, or he may have long since passed of old age regardless.
.... perhaps it's too soon to suggest this, or hope for it - but if there's a chance that you could go somewhere after we stabilize the Realm, and your memories are returned to you, and you don't wish to go back to wherever that place is...
[he offers goat a smile and squeezes his hand gently. they're in the savanna by now i guess? i didn't plan a route for their walk]
Of course.
I'm not sure how all the world traveling works, or if you'd be able to visit but... my home is always welcome to you - even if I'm no longer there myself.
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I'm not sure. My heart is heavy, but--this sorrow, I can endure. It's worthwhile to know of my failures, so I know not to repeat my mistakes.
However, I recognize that I'm still missing so much of my life, and I can't predict the missing pieces.
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... I'm relieved.
But I also wanted to thank you, for sharing your sorrow with me. I know why you think that these are mistakes.... but I do think that your heart meant no harm when you did them.
So I hope that in the future, you'll continue to share the missing pieces with me as they come back.
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[ a pause. ]
If that's what you want.
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[ . . . . but.]
... he must've meant a lot to you, if you went so far to revive him, though. To think that you were in so much pain that you didn't want to consider a world without him.
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and then, quietly, ]
He is my world.
[ in a way, it's as much of a realization as it is a statement of goat's feelings, now that he has all of his memories of the boy again.
at least up until the point where he was impaled and possibly died, anyway. ]
... And not merely because he's all I remember right now. That was how I felt, even then, and even after our exile--that he was everything to me.
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to have important people that you wanted to keep with you no matter what - and perhaps soo-won could never make the choice that goat did.
but he also can't say that he wouldn't be tempted.]
.... do you ever think about letting your world get a little bigger than that?
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It is difficult to say. After all, my most recent memory, chronologically, is promising to spend the rest of that child's life by his side, before my friend drove her spear through my chest.
I don't know if that is what I'll return to, once we're done here in the Realm, or if my life continues long past that point. If I'm not dead, then I must keep my promise to him, or he may have long since passed of old age regardless.
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And then what will you do, after his life is done?
[when your world is gone a second time?]
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I don't know.
That child wanted me to live among humans, after his final passing. But given what happened... it doesn't sound as though I am welcome among them.
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.... would you go somewhere else, if you could?
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he thinks for a bit. ]
... I suppose ideally, I would return to where I came from, wherever that may be. I had to have existed somewhere before I descended.
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.... that is true.
[but. he pauses thoughtfully.]
.... perhaps it's too soon to suggest this, or hope for it - but if there's a chance that you could go somewhere after we stabilize the Realm, and your memories are returned to you, and you don't wish to go back to wherever that place is...
You're always welcome to come with me.
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I think... regardless of what happens, I have a duty to that world. I cannot simply leave it because of any unhappiness.
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I think I can understand the sentiment.
Very well then - I simply didn't want the chance to offer to slip me by.
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... Thank you. It is appreciated.
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Of course.
I'm not sure how all the world traveling works, or if you'd be able to visit but... my home is always welcome to you - even if I'm no longer there myself.
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I don't know if we'll be granted the opportunity... so we will see.
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Well... I'll hope so, if nothing else.
It feels like there's so much in the world that I'd still like to see. My country doesn't have lands that even look like this.
[like JUNGLE]
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The world is a vast place.
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Most of my memories are of one land, apart from that island... but I feel as though I have knowledge of the rest of the world.