AUDIENCE: SOO-WON

[retellers]

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[recrowns]

[soo-won nods along... humming softly]

Though I think I also see - why it is that you said that you're used to carrying sadness with you.

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[ ???

their expression says. ]

[recrowns]

If you don't dislike anyone, it becomes harder to live - given the scarcity of resources. The way in which that you don't wish for anyone to suffer, but it often ends up becoming that way when there are scuffles for dominance.

I think.... with a lifespan like yours, and outlook like that, it probably hurts more, than if you lacked either. [a beat] Though it comes with its perks too, of course.

It's balancing, so as to not be overwhelmed.

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[ they pause. ]

But I don't need resources?

[recrowns]

You don't -

But it sounds like you've watched others fight for them before, or something similar, if you're accustomed to bloodshed.

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Hm. I suppose... although it's only speculation at this point.

[recrowns]

Do you want your memories back...? You'll get them back at the end, when all of this is done, won't you?

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[ ... ]

I think a part of me is afraid... but yes. In the end, it's probably for the best that I get them back, and ideally, I should if all goes well.

[recrowns]

... afraid?

Why?

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... Though I maintain my conviction that there are parts of me that would stay constant, with or without my memories...

[ they're quiet for a moment. ]

Perhaps part of why I can endure is because I have nothing before this to weigh me down. Whatever happens here, in the Realm, is the only life I know.

I fear that if I regain my memories, my heart will shatter, and I'll realize that I'm a weaker person than I believed.

[recrowns]

[ . . . . ah. he blinks at that, and wonders what it would be like, to suddenly suffer under the weight of countless memories all at once, so many of them difficult and full of suffering.

he reaches out for goat's hand again at that]

I don't know if I'd equate that to weakness, Goat.

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[ ... ]

Then, what would you call it?

[recrowns]

I don't know. Emotion? Sensibility? I'd call it humanity but...

[goat isn't human, and that's all that they know.]

To feel burdened and upset isn't weakness, when it stems from a sincere kindness. Your heart isn't made of stone - you shouldn't expect it to act the same way.

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... I suppose...

[ although there's still an uncertainty to their voice. ]

[recrowns]

Would you fault another who lived through many wars, many difficulties, and couldn't put themselves back together on their own ability? Would you call that weakness?

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No.

[ that, they say easily. ]

... Even so, something doesn't sit quite right.

[recrowns]

.... then I won't try to convince you.

[if this is some grander thing beyond soo-won's 18 years - he thinks that he can handle many things. but it just so happens that understanding the grandeur of an immortal lifetime is not one of them]

But I'll come find you when all of this is over so you don't have to sit with your broken heart alone, alright? Don't go hiding away on me.

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[ ... ]

All right.

[recrowns]

Promise?

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... A promise is very binding...

[recrowns]

They are.

That is why I'm asking.

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[ ...

but if they promise, that means they can't hide away if that's what they feel like doing!!!

dilemma D: ]

[recrowns]

[there's just a laugh]

I didn't think you the type for misleading people...

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A-Am I being misleading...

[recrowns]

You said you wouldn't hide from me... but you seem a bit nervous to promise the same.

Which implies you might still want to run, right?