TL;CR MEME

[retellers]

1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.

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[uhhhmagic]

/pushing everyone else aside MOVE IM GAY

[evocationary]

GROSS HER LEAST FAVORITE PERSON

no basically this whole game was lup fighting against literally everything that was trying to disconnect her from taako, and her slowly losing her shit because of it.

so lup's canon point was the second after taako breaks the umbrella over his knee and lets her out. she comes into this game having not been able to touch or talk to anybody for i think twelve-thirteen years, having sat in this fucking umbrella and having left taako behind, and then realizing that he didn't KNOW her. so him knowing her right off the bat was first, a relief, and second, kind of terrifying. how do you go for that long without your twin? how do you just step right back into place after... everything? she was worried it wasn't going to be easy, because she knows taako, and she knows how he'd acted without his memories, and... well, they had the memloss thing hanging over their heads, too. that was an added stress.

so they start off sort of - not uncomfortable, but trying to find their footing, and of course, lup finds people she likes almost immediately. she pretty much immediately adopted sora and she was all up in blanca's business, and she was trying to balance that with being there for taako and feeling like she wasn't, enough. and then taako responds to this by using mob as his own Teenager and she was SO mad about that. she knew why he was doing it, and she didn't appreciate feeling manipulated like that LMAO. so she knew things were weird, and that they needed to sit down and talk about it and she knew taako sure as hell was not going to bring it up. so she pulls him in and they talk, and that was a really good discussion they had. she pointed out that it hurt her when he tried to get back at her for liking people, and he came back at her with the fact that she was hiding things from him to protect him, and how mad she'd get if he did that to her. the whole conversation about "were you ever going to tell me about soo-won" really set the tone for the rest of the game for her. there were some secrets that she couldn't tell him because they weren't hers to tell, but she did her very best to come to him with everything she knew, because he was right. she needed to trust him to handle it.

but she told him everything she could, as much as was safe to. she really tried her hardest to not fall into the thing she does where she goes off on her own. she wanted to leave room for taako to follow, if he wanted to, and she was conscious of that a lot through the whole game.

the memory clusterfuck started then, and she forgot her entire death and that he forgot her, and that was SUCH a kick in the gut. this was a trend this whole game of the both of them just trying to patchwork history together based on what things either of them knew, and both of them panicking and trying to reassure the other and kind of just, sucking at it because they were both so concerned about the mental health of the other that it was more like two goats hitting their heads together than anything like real comfort. like there were several times where lup was like i have to Not Be Upset because taako needs me and i think it was probably the same for taako? in fact he said it a few times where he was like, i cannot afford to lose my shit because you need me to be stable, and that worried her SO much. not being able to touch him was the worst part of any of that too, because she was so accustomed to reaching out to him in general, and because after not being able to be touched for a decade, physical comfort was really what she wanted. she wanted to be connected in all the ways she could, and that's why she was clingy. pretzels, always.

there were like, five or six people i think that lup made promise to take care of taako if anything happened to her, too. she was so concerned that one of them was going to forget the other (because her brain was already becoming swiss cheese) that if she couldn't be around for whatever reason, she needed him to be okay. other people couldn't do it as well as her, but she was still willing to let people try.

so this stuff is sort of like... simmering. she loses her name, which is... Her, basically. she thinks of the two of them as a unit, taako-and-lup, and so not being able to remember her name felt like ripping a part of her identity out of her. she wasn't as connected to her twin because she couldn't remember her name. it was too horribly similar to taako forgetting her name. i think she mentioned it in a thread with one of her other cr, where she'd spelled her name out on the wall and taako didn't know who she was, and how it felt like that, like a gut punch. she was losing big parts of herself and those big parts were directly related to the one source of stability she's always had in her life - taako. so things start to come apart for her. her name, and then the cyoa, with taako stumbling out half dead, and she bottled that up. i don't think she actually ever talked in depth to anybody about how much that freaked her out. like, it was obvious, obviously, but she never really got to talk through the existential dread she felt at taako nearly bleeding to death.

taako giving her the name ruby was really sweet, though. i do think it was funny that blanca suggested ruby at almost the exact same time completely unaware that taako also had, too, wow.

this is the week where yoshizawa died too, and lup didn't really care that much about her one way or another, but taako did, and that made it so that she really only cared about figuring out who killed her. and they couldn't even do that much, and then on top of things, emet told her he had a role, and it was just extra personal failing for her. like not only has she forgotten her name, she couldn't protect taako, and she couldn't figure out who killed a person taako actually called a friend - they were losing someone who was important to the game, and that's why she exploded so hard during the execution. she hadn't realized she was that upset and it was really embarrassing to her, that she lost her cool in front of all these people, about a person she only really generally liked. she felt like a failure, like she was watching all these people die because of something she did all over again. she brushed it off a bit when taako talked to her about it, didn't get into all of that and just told him her name was the source, because she didn't want to embarrass herself further. she had to be strong for him and that meant she wasn't going to do this stupid breakdown thing anymore. she went extra hard on trying to figure out the roles, on trying to mastermind, etc etc, because she couldn't let something like a role nearly getting killed happen again. if she could just save everybody from this, it'd be fine. so she set off to do it.

i don't have anything to say about the Sleeves Incident that i haven't already said other than like good job us for setting up something so awful, but it still makes me cry from both sad and funny because lup staring longingly at taako's sleeveless shirt was really horrible skdjfks

god the week he forgot her fucked her UP. she lost her shit at soo-won about it, but for the most part she tried to pull all of that really fierce and horrible emotion back into her and didn't let anybody see it. emotional constipation the game. i wasn't very nice to her about memories either because she lost how to cook, which was another connection to taako that was just gone, and then she lost the best day ever, and like... week 4-5 was just really bad. she was consistently unstable and she KNEW she was, and she just could not find her footing. she was still reeling from taako having forgotten her (and he remembered, so it was okay, but being treated like a stalker by him wasn't ever something she'd had to deal with before, he'd always known her face to face). she was really, really lonely week four, and she gave so many people the "trapped in an umbrella" memory because it was constantly on her mind. that week felt like going through it again.

lup is an independent person but taako is... her whole heart, and with that comes a little bit of codependency. the days after she got her ass kicked by the cyoa were basically her just being needy and wanting taako to not go out of her sight. taako having to do a murder was also terrible? like she knew that he'd be okay because the whole trial was basically set up, but still. she stressed out so hard about that and ON TOP OF THAT - this is really funny, because she'd already gotten on him about this, but she was terribly jealous of the other swans. the only reason she checked herself was because she realized she was actually almost mad that she didn't get to go with him to do a murder. which is so stupid, i'm crying. that was the point where she had to sort of step back and go okay, lup, you're being a crazy person.

anyway i think i've rambled about everything else in various places - honestly?? lup was pretty good about letting taako know why she was upset about stuff for the most part so there's not a LOT that didn't come out in threads. but it very much was a game of her being like "stop trying to take my twin from me" in various levels of intensity. she loves him very much AND ALSO, AS A SIDE NOTE?? thank you for letting me play lup to your taako, it was an absolute joy <3