... I don't know. There's a lot of information going around these days that I've only heard from other participants. It's nothing us Leader have spoken of with each other. I don't know which ones are true and which ones are people making things up to maybe justify their actions.
... I had memory magic, before I came here. I know I did. I'm forgetting things, and I know I'd already forgotten things before this, but it would have been so easy to check whether he believed that was the truth or not...
Sora's trying to gather everyone. And others... seem to be coming across things I hadn't even heard of before they announced it, like ... people's Nova apparently splintering. Was that something you hadn't heard about either?
[ ... ]
It doesn't seem I'm really carrying my weight, am I?
Homura... [ they put a hand on her arm gently ] It's okay. Not everyone has the same information, and people are keeping things to themselves or to people they're close to. It's hard. If the splintering thing is real, I hadn't heard about it before you guys, either.
Bonds supposedly generate nova, but ... what does that even mean? Just because you know someone doesn't make it a bond. It has to go both ways, doesn't it?
I'm ... pretty sure the realm picked the wrong person for this.
[ me checking when this thread was to reference my notes on what she has and hasn't remembered yet. ]
... I just have a feeling, somehow. That I've been forgotten many times in the past, and that I did it to myself. And it wasn't as if I was good at making friends in the first place, so . . .
... I'm not good at making friends, either. [ they laugh a little, looking down ] I don't remember much about myself at all, but it's the same thing. A feeling. And it's pretty true here, too.
[ but they look back at homura and grab her hand ]
But that doesn't mean we were a bad choice for this. We can still try and do our best, can't we? So let's both try.
[ i was gonna yeet in a request for a w3, w4 sunday or a w5 pc because i was going to reply to this and then got smashed over the head by remembering this was w2 and she's still in glasses, holy shit. but then i forgot and things happened, oh well. ]
... I've never done anything less than try. I won't... it won't be any different here. Of course I'll do my best.
[ so she'll squeeze back, a little. even so... ]
It's just a matter of whether trying our best will ever be enough.
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Sora's trying to gather everyone. And others... seem to be coming across things I hadn't even heard of before they announced it, like ... people's Nova apparently splintering. Was that something you hadn't heard about either?
[ ... ]
It doesn't seem I'm really carrying my weight, am I?
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[ she can't just stand there and let things happen around her. ]
I don't even know where to begin, though.
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I'm ... pretty sure the realm picked the wrong person for this.
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[ the question makes them pause ]
Do you really think you're that bad a choice?
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... I just have a feeling, somehow. That I've been forgotten many times in the past, and that I did it to myself. And it wasn't as if I was good at making friends in the first place, so . . .
[ stares into distance at this. ]
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[ but they look back at homura and grab her hand ]
But that doesn't mean we were a bad choice for this. We can still try and do our best, can't we? So let's both try.
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... I've never done anything less than try. I won't... it won't be any different here. Of course I'll do my best.
[ so she'll squeeze back, a little. even so... ]
It's just a matter of whether trying our best will ever be enough.